We Are In The Days Of Noah

March 13, 2020 Journal Entry

I had someone very close to me call yesterday. I was really glad to hear from that because I wanted to thank them for a book and a card they had sent me. Boy was I in for a surprise because I hadn’t talked to this person for a while and it seemed they had much on their heart.

I have mentioned to you guys in the previous post that I was just getting my confidence in hearing From Jesus again and sharing the messages he was giving me. 

I had posted a message about President Donald Trump on my Facebook page just a few days earlier before receiving this call. The Lord was affirming his re-election and presidency. So this person wasn’t too happy about that. They were very angry and disappointed about things the Lord had told me to share on social media. I knew it was the enemy speaking through them to discourage me from writing or having faith that I was hearing from the Lord because that is exactly where he hit.

As this person went on to say that I wasn’t hearing From Jesus and not only that I would get more likes and gain popularity if I would stay away from prophecies, end times message and politics because in every generation they always say “Jesus is coming” and no one knows the day or the hours. That I should just focus on preaching the gospel like other ministers do. At first I was a bit shocked then all I could do was laugh inside because I knew it was sooo the enemy really trying to discourage me from writing. As the person continued to rant on the phone I thought to myself “really Satan that all you got”.  He is good at doing that for all those who desire to follow Jesus whole heartedly. The Lord releases a grace on you and the enemy can see the areas you are struggling with. As his demons taunt you with doubt, unbelief, and fear concerning what the Lord is calling you to do. You struggle interiorly and even in prayer you cry out to the Lord about it. Then satan sends someone to tempt you or scorn you concerning that very thing. To cause you to question, second guess yourself or feed into that doubt. However, if you recognize him immediately that he loses every time. We all can be used by the devil, he uses weak Christians to attack others. I have been there myself.

This is the second time the, the devil, has pulled this one on me. I remember in my second year walking with Jesus I would press in fervently in the Lord presence in prayer at my apartment. It seemed my life had become just work and prayer. I wasn’t seeing any real fruit then nor any real consolations so I found myself being discontent, frustrated and thinking about being more laxed. The thought kept rising in my head “just live a little”, go out have some fun”..Remember the old days, see you gave your life to the Lord and look at it now, its not fun at all”. As all these thoughts assailed me I did tell the Lord in prayer that I just wanted to live a little because my life was just all about prayer, but soon realized how foolish it was and repented.  I even did a blog about it, you can read here.

Then the very next day my brother in law comes over and says the exact same words to me. That I am not called to be a pastor and I am trying to be “holy ,holy” I should just live a little.  I thought to myself waaaa, was he here in my apartment yesterday when I was crying?? Of course not, but the demons were and they knew very well how to tempt me. All I could do was laugh thinking “uh uh not today Satan, not today”. Imagine if I would’ve listened to those senseless thoughts and suggestions from the devils and others. I wouldn’t be where I am with Jesus today, 4 years later.

So after this person got done giving me their opinion, I kindly told them I respected their stance, I loved them, but I had to listen to the Lord and wasn’t at all interested in likes or popularity only Gods will. After I got off the phone I wasn’t even offended, but I did repent for impatience and frustration in my heart towards them.  It actually made me want to pray more because I realize how so many, even Christians are blinded and hardened to the reality of the times that we are living. So I stayed up and prayed for them and souls who are just like him.  They just don’t know, Father forgive them because I too was one as I came before Jesus saying,

Lord, do you have anything on your heart you would like to share?


Jesus began,

I’m here little one, continue to write my beloved thank you for stopping to discernment.

(I had to stop because the voice I was hearing was very condescending on others and I knew it wasn’t the Lords heart So the first two readings got “laziness”, and “long life” in the BP to walk in the way of the Lord. So I bound any lying spirits and continued to write)

Jesus continued,

yes by faith beloved continue writing by faith. We are one and I do dwell within you as I mentioned I am a breath away.  It truly is easy as breathing just write what is flowing from your heart little one. I am indeed  astounded at the profound unbelief in my body and in my brides little one. So many have made me a “thing”, a “religion”, or even “a religious idea”, but they truly have no faith to believe in me or in my words little one. How it grieves me, so many have taken my words, my promises and my warnings for granted. This soul was right to say that many ministers preach the gospel, but it’s just their own gospel it is not my gospel dear one. You are called to do My will and not the will of man. How many chosen shepherds have strayed away because of the fear of man. Strayed way because of the scorn and contempt they would face if they spoke truth and lived by the truth, but I am upsetting the apple cart. I am doing a new thing. I am raising the lowly, the over looked, the rejected, the unwise, and unlearned. 

Those who will follow me and worship me alone in spirit and truth. Those who will lay down their lives for my service and that of their brothers. Those who care not of the accolades, the respect or honor of men, but live for what heaven says alone. We are indeed in the days of Noah. Oh how my faithful servant tarried for so many years, 120 years to be exact. What do you think the people said, the same thing they say now. “Your foolish, your calling bluff, your crying wolf, your inciting fear, preach something we want to hear, what rain..it has never rained.”

As my people say, “what coming?”. “Yes, you have been saying the Lord is coming for a while now, for years, even centuries”, but my people have fallen asleep. Oh how my apostles faced the same scrutiny and contempt in preaching the coming kingdom. So do not be dismayed or discouraged my little one, you may be small in stature, but in me you stand tall and will continue to do so. Tell them my beloved one of their offenses towards me. Tell them I am indeed coming and I am looking for pure hearts and clean hands. Those who have ears to hear will hear. Those who continue to rely on their own opinion, own agendas and own desires will fall at the waste side. Pray for them dear ones, pray for them fervently. For your King is coming and has his reward in hand!

 This is all for now my little one, my very precious little one .I love you dearly my beloved child. Go now in the peace and courage of your God.”

-From Jesus With Love

Hearing From Me Is As Easy As Breathing

Hello family,

It has been a long while since I wrote a blog forgive me for my absence. I have been really busy here in the community and also my Youtube Channel however, the Lord reminded me that I wasn’t feed the flock on the website. Moreover,

he really wanted to get his messages out. To spread his writings and words far and wide to bring hope to many. Before I was just writing down things I have experienced and lessons Jesus was teaching me. However, now Jesus has restored the grace of hearing his voice. So I will be sharing the messages he gives me everyday so that you maybe encouraged and strengthened as well!

Since my fall in discernment last year I lost the grace to hear his voice. If I can be honest I was saddened but a bit relieved because I would always become so full of anxiety when trying to have conversations with Jesus or write down what I thought he was saying. The devils would pound me with doubt, unbelief, fear and so much anxiety that I would be deceived again and more over that I was just talking to myself. So it had 9 months and I had became comfortable just getting rhema words from him and getting instructions through the books I read. Also through my spiritual covering as well. Mother Clare who is my spiritual mother, told me that she wanted me to began journaling again. So despite by hesitation and fears I had to be obedient so I began today writing all that happened during prayer

I woke up this morning after having a dream with a friend of mine in it where he gave me some ice cream to eat. I ate it all there were more to the dream but I didn’t remember I then asked Holy Spirit the dreams with me eating something is that spiritual warfare/ witch craft and I got in the BP “Holy Spirit” 1 John 2:27. By the way BP is referring to the Bible Promise I use for discernment. It is a tool Jesus has given us to use to go deeper in discerning his will and its only $2.99 on Amazon. I encourage every believer to use this for discernment as well.  So thought, uh oh and felt I needed to really pray in the spirit. 

Then I went outside to use the restroom and I saw on a bucket the word “ SCEPTER” and I knew that meant authority. I felt the Lord was reminding me to use my authority. As I set with him in adoration for a bit I began to readings from the Bible and various holy books to get some direction from Him. I got readings on “Guilt” and the last reading I got was titled “Hearing and Seeing Jesus”. What stuck out to me that it said “99% of the time we don’t hear or see Jesus because of our unbelief or false guilt …self-hatred of ourselves so thought the Lord then maybe wanted to speak to me”

I thought okay maybe Jesus wants me to practice again hearing his voice.

So I came to him writing in my journal saying,

 Lord from all of the readings you gave me this morning in prayer I feel in my heart you are wanting us to use our scepters, the authority given to us by consecrated a fast and praying for repentance for ourselves and our nation Lord?

Lord is there anything on your heart?

Jesus began,
My Beloved daughter why so tense and full of anxiety I am right here with you. I have always been and dwell within you little one. No need to fear, my desire is that you would began to hear and see me more clearly but, it has been a water gate of guilt that has stopped you from coming to me. Hence all the readings I gave you today were in reference to the steep condemnation and unbelief you were walking in. There is much I want to tell you and much I desire for you to be prepared for. 

I am so proud of you my  little one, Mother Mary Elisha that name suites you very much. I will use you to speak as an oracle on my behalf. Many won’t listen, many will rebel and many will disregard my words to you because of your stature, your demeanor, and how you look but, be not dismayed you are my voice.  I have put my words in to your mouth even though many times they may be strong words don’t fear. 

For as Father Ezekiel said your words, your prayers, will be those that snatch your brethren from the edge. So don’t fear little one, the fruit you bare will be much later but, walk in obedience to me and to your superiors Mother and Father Ezekiel. You are indeed blessed to have them as your shepherd and overseers. They adore you and love you very much, don’t take their wisdom and council for granted. Never do that dear one, I will always honor your obedience to them rather than any sacrifice you give. For when you honor them you, honor me. 

Now I want to talk to you about what is to come. I have called you here on this mountain as a beacon of hope for all nations and a source of light for those who are in darkness. Don’t think everyone I send here will be fit to walk in the Franciscan vocation but, many will come in their season to grow, to be stretched, to be purified, and then to be taught if they are willing to yield to the authorities I have put overhead in this community. If they don’t they too will leave in a while but, your job my little one is to love, love, and then love some more. You here not only to pray but, to be an example  of my love to all your brothers in lowliness, in humility, and in meekness. Submit to all my beloved and don’t take offense I want you to really work on that my love 

 Lord I can’t work at anything please help give me the grace Lord too truly have this attitude of heart its so hard for me Lord

Jesus responded,

I know beloved that is one of your greatest weaknesses and my greatest strength in you. So the graces have been given, but you must have a better resolve dear one. Don’t get lax daisy and when you feel that way just call upon me and I will be near. Of course always run to my Mother, she is a treasure trove full of graces and mercies dear one. She is the one cradling, nurturing and pruning you through all of this. You are my special gift to her dear one.”


Thank you Lord!

(However, I was doubting again and being filled with anxiety to stop writing and Jesus could sense that)

Jesus read my thoughts,

I see you tensing up already. Ease up my little one, ease up take a deep breath. I want you to write all that I say to your heart. Receiving my thoughts and love for you as easy as breathing

 Lord you make it sounds so easy, (at this point I was thinking Jesu has to be kidding it is so hard for me, the anxiety and the doubt are overwhelming)

Jesus responded,

But it is my beloved when you have faith and confidence in me. That it’s not what you do, or how you feel but you come in my presence because you know I love you. You know I desire you and you know I want to speak to you. Not only for your sake for the sake of others my little one

 Oh Lord please helps


Jesus continued,

I am here for you my beloved I truly am. Share these things with Mother Clare let her council be your guide dear one. You are truly blessed, extremely blessed dear just always remember the greater the privilege the greater the humility dear. That should cause you to go lower, lower, and even lower loving your littleness and nothingness and seeing me as your all in all.

Me: Okay Lord thank you so much Jesus I trust in you, Jesus I trust in you, Jesus I trust in you

That was the end of the message from Jesus, with Love!