A Curse of A Hardened Heart

Matthew 13: 14 So they show that what Isaiah said about them is true: ‘You people will listen and listen, but you will not understand. You will look and look, but you will not really see. Yes, the minds of these people are now closed. They have ears, but they don’t listen. They have eyes, but they refuse to see.

I came back from doing a message outside and he had given me “ Gods correction”. I was a bit concerned asking the Lord to show me the error of my ways and felt prompted to get 3 rhemas to get direction and I pulled  

Acts 28:26-27 Hardened Hearts

“Go to these people and say you will indeed hear but never understand and you will indeed see but never perceive. For these peoples hearts have grown dull and with their ears they can barely hear and their eyes they have closes lest they should see with there eyes and hear with their eyes”

So I was perplexed and sat with the Lord on my  bed in adoration and a flood of emotions came over me. Such grief and sadness because I understood that even in this pandemic and trial the Lord has allowed, many have not gotten it. Many still don’t understand or have a desire to repent, to draw nearer to the Lord and live for him.  The word “ curse of hardened heart” kept ringing in my mind.

Lord is there anything you want to say? My heart is breaking

Jesus began,

Yes my little one, how my heart and that of the Fathers is breaking for the people of the world. There has been a curse of hardened hearts released upon my people. How their love for me have grown cold even in this trial I have allowed to cover the whole world. You would think many would began to wake up to realize that not only am I real, that not only am I God, but that I am calling my people to a change of heart. I am calling my people back to their first love, but how very few have responded. Many are seeing this lock down as a time of relaxation, a time to get off work, a time to relax be with their families and binge watch shows. 

Many are taking opportunities to scoff and mock at my servants, at my prophets, who are speaking the truth. Calling the people to wake up from their slumber that I am indeed coming. How so many scoff at my wisdom and continue to incline themselves to their human reasoning. Many continue to draw to the earth climate change as the cause of these calamities. They are lies, lies, lies, formed by satan and the evil ones to take the minds and hearts of  my people away from the truth. Away from examining their conscience and continue to ignore that gnawing feeling that something is coming, that something is happening, that change needs to happen in their lives. No, instead they continue to feed their vanities, feed their flesh in this time with the latest news, new purchases as consolation and comforts from the void they feel in their hearts. 

Oh how my heart is breaking dear one it is because of you little ones who have indeed laid yourself down, humbled yourself and prayed that is why my mercy has been relentless, but how much longer what will it take my people. You obstinate minds and stiff necked natures you continue on about as it will be business as usual when these quarantines are lifted. Do you not see my hand in this? Do not ignore my calling any longer. The day of salvation is at hand and it is now. The door of Mercy will not be opened for ever my hardened heart ones. Indeed you have eyes, but you do not see me crying out all around you. To turn your heart back to me away from the word and your selfishness. You indeed have ears, but you do not hear the warning from my shepherds, prophets, and pastors. You do not hear the voice crying out in the wilderness make straight the way for the Lord. Rather you scoff and say I have heard it before, oh yea He his coming, but no one knows the day or hour. I tell you the fig tree is blooming and this is the season 

(here is quoting Matthew 24:32 “Now learn this lesson from the fig trees; As soon as its twigs het tender and its leaves come out, you know that summer is near. 33 Even so, when you see all these things you know that it is near right at the door.34 Truly I tell you this generation will certainly not pass away until all these things have happened”

You say there is no God and I need not to be held accountable for my life. For I only have one life to live, so I will live it to the fullest. Oh, but I tell you, you have eternity awaiting you. Eternity where everything will be put into account. My dearly loved ones I paid that price on cavalry to have you right next to me. 

Please heed my call. Please hear the cry of my heart and harden your heart no longer. Do not be like that thief on the cross who scoffed at his time of salvation. He did not know that that very cross, that very trial, that very moment was the moment of his salvation. Yet he rejected it and treated me with scorn and contempt, however the other thief recognized me in the midst of his pain, in the midst of his trial, in the midst of his cross. He heard the voice of his shepherd, he reached out and received his salvation. For he knew he deserved everything I had allowed and he knew my infinite goodness and mercy. So my mercy is yet again extended to you.  My mercy time and time again will not fail. It is fathomless and and abounding, but it will not be available forever my dear ones. Run to the arms of our merciful savior or when we meet you will be face to face with the just judge. My beloved ones, my brides please pray for these hardened hearted ones. Pray for this nation and the world. Pray against this curse of hardened heart that have caused many to continue on the road to destruction and have seared conscious, but nothing is impossible for me and my mercy will triumph over judgment pray for them.’

That was the end of Jesus message

Be The Light

This morning I was getting down from my bed and my computer fell from the top bunk and cracked. Furthermore, I had been chided by Mother Clare and Father Ezekiel of not taking care of things well. Which is so true because I had just got this computer fixed a week before so I was devastated and disappointment in myself. Since the Lord was telling me to began writing again. Also I do all my work on the channel using this laptop so I was frustrated thinking this had to be the enemy. 

I came before the Lord during prayer as I felt he began speaking to me. 

Jesus began,

“My beloved don’t be too hard on yourself. It would’ve been wise to leave it at a safer place, but who do you think knocked it over?”

The devils Lord

 Jesus responded,

“Yes, Beloved I want you from now on to anoint and bless any equipment or ministry materials you receive. The devils hate the assignment I have given you and  will do all they can to frustrate my plans, but I wont allow it. I do however allow these things to not only cause you to be aware, but to pray more and to grow in patience. An offering a gift you can give to me for the salvation of souls.”

Okay Lord forgive me I renounce frustration, impatience and bitterness.

Jesus continued,

“Now the readings I gave you and the songs I played were all about faith beloved. Did you  not ask me to make you a great women of faith?”

Yes Lord I just didn’t know the cost lol

Jesus responded,

“Well, my little one with great faith comes great test, great breaking and great patience endurance. Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not yet seen. To hope in the impossible takes great faith and great faith starts with a  small mustard seed of faith. So I’m not asking for your faith to be big more like I am asking you to hope greatly that I am who I say I am and that I can do all things. This generation will be known for the great exploits and showmanship of my power than any other generation. I am calling my people to have great hope in me, to believe as the times get darker so will great faith arise. It must arise to shader the darkness and cause the enemy to retreat. For so long my people have been held captive by fear, fear of the me, fear of delusion, fear of man and fear of the enemy, but I am calling my people to believe again, hope again in great faith the things that I will do in and through them. For those who are desiring to move in the supernatural gifts, it is available for you. The treasure of heaven is available for all my people all they must do is ask. I have a storehouse where the angels wait to hear the command of my people to release gifts,but my people don’t ask rather they fear it and walk in so much unbelief. Come to me my people come to the Father who owns a cattle on a thousand hills and gives to all generously who ask. Give yourself entirely to me in consecration and holiness and greater works will you do and see all for my glory.”

 Lord if I may I remember you told me that in order to have faith “take more risk”

Jesus continued,

Yes beloved one, my people fear being rejected or doubt the results of things,but step out in faith and obedience and allow me to do the rest. Rarely is there a time a sincere prayer is prayed for a soul and returned void. Sometimes the fruit you don’t see but there is always fruit when you step out in faith. So my people I’m calling faith to rise even in you now. Do you have the lame, sick around you step out in my love to touch them. I am their hope and believe I can and will do the impossible and I might just surprise you. (smiling) Im calling my people to count the cost and began to live out the life of what they say they believe

Do you believe I can raise the dead?

Do you believe I can heal the sick?

Do you believe I can open blind eyes?

Do you believe I can transform a hardened heart?

Do you believe I can do all these things through you?

If you say you believe then what are you doing about it?

My beloved ones take risk hope against hope believe I tell you believe ask for the this gift began to walk in them now. When you see someone in need ask for me to stretch out my hands through your heart and touch them and leave the results to me. Great works will I do in and through you

Lord Can I share the vision you gave me a while back is that okay?

Yes, beloved it will greatly inspire others and to what I have in store for this generation for those who believe . Remember deep faith comes from Intimacy with me.”

So I had a vision family, of a family member who was away from home. I received a letter from them and I was cleaning up my room. When I touched his envelope I immediately went into an open vision. I saw this family member being met by the youth leader of my church at the time and his friends in the parking lot of my church for prayer. The all laid hands on him and began to pray I was just watching. No street lights were on so it was dark however as they began to pray I saw little bulbs of light over my family members head. Then as I looked closely they were getting bigger and I realized they were angels. They began to descend and ascend up and down as they were praying for this family member. The light then overshadowed them all as they were all glowing. Then my family member changed into a man who I knew was on drugs and after they prayed he was completely transformed and restored. He was so in shock seeing the physical transformation of himself he asked to join us. We said sure, then there was a group of us as we went into the streets simply touching the homeless, prositutes, drug addicts and they were immeadielty healed by a touch. They too where in shock and all asked to follow us. Then I saw a dark hill, then one light, then two lights, then three and four then so forth until the whole hill was lite up then I cam out of the vision. The scripture that came to mind was “ a city on a hill”. Mt 5:14 

“You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden.

 That is what this last generation will be like!

We Are In The Days Of Noah

March 13, 2020 Journal Entry

I had someone very close to me call yesterday. I was really glad to hear from that because I wanted to thank them for a book and a card they had sent me. Boy was I in for a surprise because I hadn’t talked to this person for a while and it seemed they had much on their heart.

I have mentioned to you guys in the previous post that I was just getting my confidence in hearing From Jesus again and sharing the messages he was giving me. 

I had posted a message about President Donald Trump on my Facebook page just a few days earlier before receiving this call. The Lord was affirming his re-election and presidency. So this person wasn’t too happy about that. They were very angry and disappointed about things the Lord had told me to share on social media. I knew it was the enemy speaking through them to discourage me from writing or having faith that I was hearing from the Lord because that is exactly where he hit.

As this person went on to say that I wasn’t hearing From Jesus and not only that I would get more likes and gain popularity if I would stay away from prophecies, end times message and politics because in every generation they always say “Jesus is coming” and no one knows the day or the hours. That I should just focus on preaching the gospel like other ministers do. At first I was a bit shocked then all I could do was laugh inside because I knew it was sooo the enemy really trying to discourage me from writing. As the person continued to rant on the phone I thought to myself “really Satan that all you got”.  He is good at doing that for all those who desire to follow Jesus whole heartedly. The Lord releases a grace on you and the enemy can see the areas you are struggling with. As his demons taunt you with doubt, unbelief, and fear concerning what the Lord is calling you to do. You struggle interiorly and even in prayer you cry out to the Lord about it. Then satan sends someone to tempt you or scorn you concerning that very thing. To cause you to question, second guess yourself or feed into that doubt. However, if you recognize him immediately that he loses every time. We all can be used by the devil, he uses weak Christians to attack others. I have been there myself.

This is the second time the, the devil, has pulled this one on me. I remember in my second year walking with Jesus I would press in fervently in the Lord presence in prayer at my apartment. It seemed my life had become just work and prayer. I wasn’t seeing any real fruit then nor any real consolations so I found myself being discontent, frustrated and thinking about being more laxed. The thought kept rising in my head “just live a little”, go out have some fun”..Remember the old days, see you gave your life to the Lord and look at it now, its not fun at all”. As all these thoughts assailed me I did tell the Lord in prayer that I just wanted to live a little because my life was just all about prayer, but soon realized how foolish it was and repented.  I even did a blog about it, you can read here.

Then the very next day my brother in law comes over and says the exact same words to me. That I am not called to be a pastor and I am trying to be “holy ,holy” I should just live a little.  I thought to myself waaaa, was he here in my apartment yesterday when I was crying?? Of course not, but the demons were and they knew very well how to tempt me. All I could do was laugh thinking “uh uh not today Satan, not today”. Imagine if I would’ve listened to those senseless thoughts and suggestions from the devils and others. I wouldn’t be where I am with Jesus today, 4 years later.

So after this person got done giving me their opinion, I kindly told them I respected their stance, I loved them, but I had to listen to the Lord and wasn’t at all interested in likes or popularity only Gods will. After I got off the phone I wasn’t even offended, but I did repent for impatience and frustration in my heart towards them.  It actually made me want to pray more because I realize how so many, even Christians are blinded and hardened to the reality of the times that we are living. So I stayed up and prayed for them and souls who are just like him.  They just don’t know, Father forgive them because I too was one as I came before Jesus saying,

Lord, do you have anything on your heart you would like to share?


Jesus began,

I’m here little one, continue to write my beloved thank you for stopping to discernment.

(I had to stop because the voice I was hearing was very condescending on others and I knew it wasn’t the Lords heart So the first two readings got “laziness”, and “long life” in the BP to walk in the way of the Lord. So I bound any lying spirits and continued to write)

Jesus continued,

yes by faith beloved continue writing by faith. We are one and I do dwell within you as I mentioned I am a breath away.  It truly is easy as breathing just write what is flowing from your heart little one. I am indeed  astounded at the profound unbelief in my body and in my brides little one. So many have made me a “thing”, a “religion”, or even “a religious idea”, but they truly have no faith to believe in me or in my words little one. How it grieves me, so many have taken my words, my promises and my warnings for granted. This soul was right to say that many ministers preach the gospel, but it’s just their own gospel it is not my gospel dear one. You are called to do My will and not the will of man. How many chosen shepherds have strayed away because of the fear of man. Strayed way because of the scorn and contempt they would face if they spoke truth and lived by the truth, but I am upsetting the apple cart. I am doing a new thing. I am raising the lowly, the over looked, the rejected, the unwise, and unlearned. 

Those who will follow me and worship me alone in spirit and truth. Those who will lay down their lives for my service and that of their brothers. Those who care not of the accolades, the respect or honor of men, but live for what heaven says alone. We are indeed in the days of Noah. Oh how my faithful servant tarried for so many years, 120 years to be exact. What do you think the people said, the same thing they say now. “Your foolish, your calling bluff, your crying wolf, your inciting fear, preach something we want to hear, what rain..it has never rained.”

As my people say, “what coming?”. “Yes, you have been saying the Lord is coming for a while now, for years, even centuries”, but my people have fallen asleep. Oh how my apostles faced the same scrutiny and contempt in preaching the coming kingdom. So do not be dismayed or discouraged my little one, you may be small in stature, but in me you stand tall and will continue to do so. Tell them my beloved one of their offenses towards me. Tell them I am indeed coming and I am looking for pure hearts and clean hands. Those who have ears to hear will hear. Those who continue to rely on their own opinion, own agendas and own desires will fall at the waste side. Pray for them dear ones, pray for them fervently. For your King is coming and has his reward in hand!

 This is all for now my little one, my very precious little one .I love you dearly my beloved child. Go now in the peace and courage of your God.”

-From Jesus With Love

The Power Of Your Prayers

March 14, 2020


I woke up that day feeling somewhat somber, it had snowed and there was no sun. I left the front community house and went into St. Joseph’s hermitage to pray. I love being away, alone with my beloved. Just to contemplate him, to pour out my heart to him and just to be in his presence.

Whiles in prayer, praying the rosary I saw Blessed Mother so beautiful in her glory.  She was hovering over every prayer petition listening so attentively and then acting on it immeaditley. First I prayed for the schools and I saw her hovering over all the universities praying along side with me, then I prayed over the children as she extended her arms and mantle over all the children of the world. Then I prayed over all the mosque and nations of Islam for conversion. I saw her hovering over different mosque releasing graces and dictating  prayers in her authority. Indeed she is truly the Queen of Heaven. In awe at this vision and still a bit unsure I came before the Lord after prayer saying,

Lord is there anything on your heart? I feel as though you were giving me some thoughts on the power of prayer. Oh Lord by faith I write ( I said smiling),l forgive me Lord


Jesus began,

Oh my little one, my beloved one, I am right here. I see how you have been assailed with so many doubts and fears. This is an assignment not only against you, but the community, and the world at large especially in your nation. I want you all to began praying against a spirit a fear, doubt, and unbelief. Run to my Mother in the rosary to take down this strong man of fear. That will keep many captive, held in darkness and many moving by their emotions rather than my will. So please pray against these things. Truly, when your focus is kept on me alone, I alone am your rock and will give you peace. I alone am your anchor admits the prevailing winds and waters that desire to turn you away from the direction I am taking you dear one, so pray.

 I do want to talk with you concerning the power of prayer. Indeed how sublime it is. It’s never by the eloquence of your speech, how much scripture you know or the words you even say, but it’s about the condition and state of your heart. Prayer is to look within yourself, where I dwell and lift all things to heaven. Wether it’s good or bad and give me thanks. It is to yield yourself to the will of the Father and placing yourself in your rightful position. Right before my throne, trusting confidently that I hear the petition of your heart. Your every thought and sigh that is lifted to me. For you are indeed seated in heavenly places. Oh how my people have lost this and continue to walk in unbelief and lack of faith in prayer. Do they not realize I desire to move through my vessels when they pray. 

History is indeed written by prayer. If the knew the power of their most simplest prayer revival, change would’ve have come so long ago, but once again traditions and eloquence of man have taken their position instead.

 Many shy away from prayer because of so many lies that have creeped in the church. That you must be anointed, that prayer is a gift some have and some don’t. That you must be able to prayer with large words or intention, or the worst of all that you can’t pray as a sinner. That I wont hear you. Lies, lies lies, I hear the prayers of the most lowliest of people and of the most wicked. For the sun shines on the righteous and the unrighteous (Matthew 5:45).

 It is about the state of your heart. If anyone would pray with belief, faith, and trust that I will hear them. I am there with ears opened to hear what they say knowing already their need before thy speak (Matthew 6:8). All of heaven hears the prayers of the people on earth. The most purest of hearts are those prayers said by those who pray my will. So that is the most important thing to seek when praying. Is to seek my will and give me thanks for what I do and I allow. 

 Also my Mothers prayers are POWERFUL. So many lies have been told concerning the rosary. How the demons hate her and her intercession. They will do anything to stop or hinder the prayers of the rosary from going forth, but I will not allow it. Tell them to pray the rosary, pray with intention and wholeheartedness. Seek to have my Mother as their prayer partner. Just as you saw, as you pray she takes every request as her own and she stays with those request until it comes to fulfillment according to my will. Indeed her Immaculate Heart will triumph in the end. I say all these things to encourage you, those in the community and my little ones who are praying. Who feel they is no fruit to be seen or found. My people continue to pray, keep praying. Your are sowing seeds on good soil, fields and grounds. In time very soon there will be copious fruit ripe at the seems. As praises rise up from the ends of the earth because of my mercy and faithfulness. So pray, dear ones pray.” 

-From Jesus With Love

You Are My Treasure

March 12, 2020


 I woke up this morning with my body feeling so sore and very uneasy. I wasn’t sure if I had offended the Lord in anyway or it was a suffering because it was really hard to connect  with Jesus in worship. However, all the songs he was playing over me were about His peace and not to fear so I felt in my heart this was an attack of some sort. 

I ended up talking to Mother Clare and Father  Ezekiel last night for a while. iI was a rough day when I felt so discouraged thinking I had been deceived in discernment with one of the messages I got from Jesus.  It took me into self pity real fast. 

However, they both helped me discern that message in question was from the Lord. Help me Lord, truly to combat this fear, doubt and unbelief in hearing your voice.

Then the community gathered together in the morning and Blessed Mother began to speak to Mother Clare.  She was crying because she had missed their intimate relationship they once had, It was so sweet and encouraged me to go much more deeper with Blessed Mother when praying the rosary as well. We prayed for those affected with the virus. After receiving the Lord I feel so at peace thank you Jesus!

I came to him saying, My beloved Lord is there anything on your heart?

Jesus began,

“’I am right here beloved indeed the graces are flowing on this mountain, in this community in a beautiful way. You all are my faithful ones.  The ones who answered the invitation to my banquet when my Father called. You are the lame, the crippled and blind ones in the eyes of the world, but to me you are my beautiful treasures. For it is the sick that are in need of God not the righteous. Many have turned aside and walked in their own way, but you all have been faithful to endure and preserver with every test that has come against this community and because of your love for me you have withstood every attempt to get you off this mountain. So you all will be richly rewarded indeed encourage, your brother.

(Here Jesus speaking of a soul in the community, one of my brothers. Who has been desiring to hear the Lords voice, but feel hopeless in his efforts)

Many have the same sentiments. Your brothers, tell them in time as they press in the very same grace to hear and see me will given to them. They must just excercise their faith and cast away doubt, fear, pride and comparison. Which stops many from entering into conversations with me . You know a thing or two about that beloved.

(At this point I was writing, but still doubting and of course as usual Jesus reads my thoughts)

 Please stop your worrying, how that hurts me so much. Your lack of trust and confidence in me after all I have done and all we have been through Mary Elisha. 

(My heart just melted when he said that)

 I desire to talk with you. I desire to fellowship and communion with you. If I could have my way we would talk for hours, but it would be too much for your mind to comprehend little one. My words are of eternal importance so I must give you a little at a time. There is only so much you can take in, meditate on, and apply to your life circumstances. Even now I see the intensity you are feeling. These will go with time, remember the enemy hates this more than anything beloved. He will do whatever he can in order to take this grace and gift from you. He will do this with all of you so share with them some of the obstacles you have had to overcome in hearing me.”


Lord sorry I guess I didn’t want to inflate myself or stir anyone up in jealously because I have been there,. You know like “Ooh I am hearing from the Lord”.


Jesus responded,

“Well my beloved one it’s not about you dear. It’s for other so please share. It will strengthen your brethren and those who desire this intimacy with me”


Okay Lord

That is all for now little one continue to come before me every day and allow me to express my heart to you dear. Continue to pray for this community, and Mother Clare especially she will need much wisdom and discernment in the coming days for precise direction. I love you so much words could not be enough to say. You are my beloved in whom I am well pleased.

– From Jesus With Love