March 17, 2020,Journal entry
I was doing the Lord supper, however all these thoughts are coming to my mind as I was praying the rosary. I felt in my heart, the Lord wanted to speak. Although, I wasn’t done yet nor had I received him in communion yet. So I decided to stop praying for a second and allow him to share His heart with me. I thought to myself something Mother Clare says all the time “The rosary is indeed a ladder to Jesus”. As I thought if Blessed Mother has taken me to your heart already through the rosary prayer. I don’t want to follow routine and not hear from him because usually I begin the Lords Supper then, do all of my prayers. Then I receive the Lord and sit with him for a while in hopes he will speak or share his heart at that time. However, this time in the middle of me praying he began speaking. I have been so used to a routine before coming to the community but once I got here Father Ezekiel encouraged me to be free with the Lord a bit more.
As he brought up a funny scenerio that many of us christians do in prayer. So he said to many times the Lord wants to speak to us but we put him off because we are praying to him. Think of it this way or imagine Jesus literally walking up to you as you are on your knees in prayer. He taps you on the shoulder and you turn to him and say “wait, give me a second Jesus I am praying”, LOL. Right, it wouldn’t make sense that the very person your praying too wants to talk but your so caught up in the routine of prayer that he has no room to speak to you. So that is what came to my mind and thats why I decided to stop and listen to him rather than finish my prayers because prayer is a ladder to His heart, to conversate with God. When you reach that place in his heart and hear him there is no need to go any further,but thank him.
So I stopped and came before Jesus saying, My beloved Lord what is on your heart?
I have a message from my people beloved one, that was indeed my heart you saw when I was crying profoundly at the indifference and unbelief of my brides, Of my people. Who say they love me with their lips but, their heart are far from me. I come to them under the guise of the poor, the homeless, the lowly neighbor but, they walk right past me as if I was invisible, because I am to them. Their love for me has grown so cold beloved and how it breaks the Father’s heart. Thank you for listening to the prompting of my Mother and began writing. Truly the rosary is a ladder straight to my heart dear one
I said, Sorry Lord, I kept trying to silence the thoughts you were giving me. I thought it would be best to receive you then write
Well, Yes beloved I love when you receive me. We become one but, remember the Lord supper is not just a ceremony. I am physically present and imagine if I was at dinner with you and I wanted to speak with you. Would you tell me wait, lets finish this meal then we can talk? No, beloved we converse through out the whole dinner.
(I began chuckling in my head,… that is so true)
That is who I am and that is how I want my brides to see and know me. No longer about religion and routines dear one but, a personal familiar relationship that I have with you that I want you to share. Now back to my heart dear one, Oh my people lament truly lament for your nation. There is great hope but, it comes with a cost and a price are you willing to pay? Stop storing up for yourselves treasures and food items that will indeed be eaten up by moths (which he is quoting Matthew 6:19) but, store up to give it away to the poor. Truly by giving to the poor your treasures are stored in heaven. Indeed a spirit of fear, unbelief and avarice have been released on the whole world like never before because of the pandemonium many are storing up. Especially my people, why store up when I have called you to give? For is it not better to give then receive (which he is quoting Acts 20:35) You see even when Joseph was warned of the seven year famine in Egypt it was not only for himself, his country but, people from all nations came in order that they may be sustained by his store house. So my beloved ones, If I have given you an inclination to store up for the times to come upon your nation it is not just for you but for your neighbors, for the poor, for the single mothers , and the widows. Those who are not financially able to help themselves. You become a source of provision for them.
If you think you call me Lord and yet store up goods just for yourself, your family, and think I am pleased you are badly mistaken my dear ones. This is a time of testing that has come upon the whole world and there is much more to come that will test the hearts of my people. To purify them and show them who they are truly standing before me. It doesn’t take much at all my dear ones to see the fragments and particles in your heart I want out, I want out, my people out. The world has creeped into the heart of my beloved ones and I want it out! Trust in me alone me to be your sustenance and give like never before in this time of trial and testing. When you give my protection covers you, surrounds you and your loved ones as you look to me as your providential Father and mirror that of your generous Father who gives to all who ask (Matthew 7:11). So If you must store up, store up to give it all away and to all who ask my dear ones. I am with you and give you now the grace to receive these words and be generous givers.
That was the end of Jesus message
-From Jesus With Love