Stock Up…. To Give To The Poor

March 17, 2020,Journal entry

I was doing the Lord supper, however all these thoughts are coming to my mind as I was praying the rosary. I felt in my heart, the Lord wanted to speak. Although, I wasn’t done yet nor had I received him in communion yet. So I decided to stop praying for a second and allow him to share His heart with me. I thought to myself something Mother Clare says all the time “The rosary is indeed a ladder to Jesus”. As I thought if Blessed Mother has taken me to your heart already through the rosary prayer. I don’t want to follow routine and not hear from him because usually I begin the Lords Supper then, do all of my prayers. Then I receive the Lord and sit with him for a while in hopes he will speak or share his heart at that time. However, this time in the middle of me praying he began speaking. I have been so used to a routine before coming to the community but once I got here Father Ezekiel encouraged me to be free with the Lord a bit more.

As he brought up a funny scenerio that many of us christians do in prayer. So he said to many times the Lord wants to speak to us but we put him off because we are praying to him. Think of it this way or imagine Jesus literally walking up to you as you are on your knees in prayer. He taps you on the shoulder and you turn to him and say “wait, give me a second Jesus I am praying”, LOL. Right, it wouldn’t make sense that the very person your praying too wants to talk but your so caught up in the routine of prayer that he has no room to speak to you. So that is what came to my mind and thats why I decided to stop and listen to him rather than finish my prayers because prayer is a ladder to His heart, to conversate with God. When you reach that place in his heart and hear him there is no need to go any further,but thank him.

So I stopped and came before Jesus saying, My beloved Lord what is on your heart?

Jesus began,
I have a message from my people beloved one, that was indeed my heart you saw when I was crying profoundly at the indifference and unbelief of my brides, Of my people. Who say they love me with their lips but, their heart are far from me. I come to them under the guise of the poor, the homeless, the lowly neighbor but, they walk right past me as if I was invisible, because I am to them. Their love for me has grown so cold beloved and how it breaks the Father’s heart. Thank you for listening to the prompting of my Mother and began writing. Truly the rosary is a ladder straight to my heart dear one

I said, Sorry Lord, I kept trying to silence the thoughts you were giving me. I thought it would be best to receive you then write


Jesus continued,
Well, Yes beloved I love when you receive me. We become one but, remember the Lord supper is not just a ceremony. I am physically present and imagine if I was at dinner with you and I wanted to speak with you. Would you tell me wait, lets finish this meal then we can talk? No, beloved we converse through out the whole dinner.

(I began chuckling in my head,… that is so true) 

That is who I am and that is how I want my brides to see and know me. No longer about religion and routines dear one but, a personal familiar relationship that I have with you that I want you to share. Now back to my heart dear one, Oh my people lament truly lament for your nation. There is great hope but, it comes with a cost and a price are you willing to pay? Stop storing up for yourselves treasures and food items that will indeed be eaten up by moths (which he is quoting Matthew 6:19) but, store up to give it away to the poor. Truly by giving to the poor your treasures are stored in heaven. Indeed a spirit of fear, unbelief and avarice have been released on the whole world like never before because of the pandemonium many are storing up. Especially my people, why store up when I have called you to give? For is it not better to give then receive (which he is quoting Acts 20:35) You see even when Joseph was warned of the seven year famine in Egypt it was not only for  himself, his country but, people from all nations came in order that they may be sustained by his store house. So my beloved ones, If I have given you an inclination to store up for the times to come upon your nation it is not just for you but for your neighbors, for the poor, for the single mothers ,  and the widows. Those who are not financially able to help themselves. You become a source of provision for them.

If you think you call me Lord and yet store up goods just for yourself, your family, and think I am pleased you are badly mistaken my dear ones. This is a time of testing that has come upon the whole world and there is much more to come that will test the hearts of my people. To purify them and show them who they are truly standing before me. It doesn’t take much at all my dear ones to see the fragments and particles in your heart I want out, I want out, my people out. The world has creeped into the heart of my beloved ones and I want it out! Trust in me alone me to be your sustenance and give like never before in this time of trial and testing. When you give my protection covers you, surrounds you and your loved ones as you look to me as your providential Father and mirror that of your generous Father who gives to all who ask (Matthew 7:11). So If you must store up, store up to give it all away and to all who ask my dear ones. I am with you and give you now the grace to receive these words and be generous givers.

That was the end of Jesus message

-From Jesus With Love

We Are In The Days Of Noah

March 13, 2020 Journal Entry

I had someone very close to me call yesterday. I was really glad to hear from that because I wanted to thank them for a book and a card they had sent me. Boy was I in for a surprise because I hadn’t talked to this person for a while and it seemed they had much on their heart.

I have mentioned to you guys in the previous post that I was just getting my confidence in hearing From Jesus again and sharing the messages he was giving me. 

I had posted a message about President Donald Trump on my Facebook page just a few days earlier before receiving this call. The Lord was affirming his re-election and presidency. So this person wasn’t too happy about that. They were very angry and disappointed about things the Lord had told me to share on social media. I knew it was the enemy speaking through them to discourage me from writing or having faith that I was hearing from the Lord because that is exactly where he hit.

As this person went on to say that I wasn’t hearing From Jesus and not only that I would get more likes and gain popularity if I would stay away from prophecies, end times message and politics because in every generation they always say “Jesus is coming” and no one knows the day or the hours. That I should just focus on preaching the gospel like other ministers do. At first I was a bit shocked then all I could do was laugh inside because I knew it was sooo the enemy really trying to discourage me from writing. As the person continued to rant on the phone I thought to myself “really Satan that all you got”.  He is good at doing that for all those who desire to follow Jesus whole heartedly. The Lord releases a grace on you and the enemy can see the areas you are struggling with. As his demons taunt you with doubt, unbelief, and fear concerning what the Lord is calling you to do. You struggle interiorly and even in prayer you cry out to the Lord about it. Then satan sends someone to tempt you or scorn you concerning that very thing. To cause you to question, second guess yourself or feed into that doubt. However, if you recognize him immediately that he loses every time. We all can be used by the devil, he uses weak Christians to attack others. I have been there myself.

This is the second time the, the devil, has pulled this one on me. I remember in my second year walking with Jesus I would press in fervently in the Lord presence in prayer at my apartment. It seemed my life had become just work and prayer. I wasn’t seeing any real fruit then nor any real consolations so I found myself being discontent, frustrated and thinking about being more laxed. The thought kept rising in my head “just live a little”, go out have some fun”..Remember the old days, see you gave your life to the Lord and look at it now, its not fun at all”. As all these thoughts assailed me I did tell the Lord in prayer that I just wanted to live a little because my life was just all about prayer, but soon realized how foolish it was and repented.  I even did a blog about it, you can read here.

Then the very next day my brother in law comes over and says the exact same words to me. That I am not called to be a pastor and I am trying to be “holy ,holy” I should just live a little.  I thought to myself waaaa, was he here in my apartment yesterday when I was crying?? Of course not, but the demons were and they knew very well how to tempt me. All I could do was laugh thinking “uh uh not today Satan, not today”. Imagine if I would’ve listened to those senseless thoughts and suggestions from the devils and others. I wouldn’t be where I am with Jesus today, 4 years later.

So after this person got done giving me their opinion, I kindly told them I respected their stance, I loved them, but I had to listen to the Lord and wasn’t at all interested in likes or popularity only Gods will. After I got off the phone I wasn’t even offended, but I did repent for impatience and frustration in my heart towards them.  It actually made me want to pray more because I realize how so many, even Christians are blinded and hardened to the reality of the times that we are living. So I stayed up and prayed for them and souls who are just like him.  They just don’t know, Father forgive them because I too was one as I came before Jesus saying,

Lord, do you have anything on your heart you would like to share?


Jesus began,

I’m here little one, continue to write my beloved thank you for stopping to discernment.

(I had to stop because the voice I was hearing was very condescending on others and I knew it wasn’t the Lords heart So the first two readings got “laziness”, and “long life” in the BP to walk in the way of the Lord. So I bound any lying spirits and continued to write)

Jesus continued,

yes by faith beloved continue writing by faith. We are one and I do dwell within you as I mentioned I am a breath away.  It truly is easy as breathing just write what is flowing from your heart little one. I am indeed  astounded at the profound unbelief in my body and in my brides little one. So many have made me a “thing”, a “religion”, or even “a religious idea”, but they truly have no faith to believe in me or in my words little one. How it grieves me, so many have taken my words, my promises and my warnings for granted. This soul was right to say that many ministers preach the gospel, but it’s just their own gospel it is not my gospel dear one. You are called to do My will and not the will of man. How many chosen shepherds have strayed away because of the fear of man. Strayed way because of the scorn and contempt they would face if they spoke truth and lived by the truth, but I am upsetting the apple cart. I am doing a new thing. I am raising the lowly, the over looked, the rejected, the unwise, and unlearned. 

Those who will follow me and worship me alone in spirit and truth. Those who will lay down their lives for my service and that of their brothers. Those who care not of the accolades, the respect or honor of men, but live for what heaven says alone. We are indeed in the days of Noah. Oh how my faithful servant tarried for so many years, 120 years to be exact. What do you think the people said, the same thing they say now. “Your foolish, your calling bluff, your crying wolf, your inciting fear, preach something we want to hear, what rain..it has never rained.”

As my people say, “what coming?”. “Yes, you have been saying the Lord is coming for a while now, for years, even centuries”, but my people have fallen asleep. Oh how my apostles faced the same scrutiny and contempt in preaching the coming kingdom. So do not be dismayed or discouraged my little one, you may be small in stature, but in me you stand tall and will continue to do so. Tell them my beloved one of their offenses towards me. Tell them I am indeed coming and I am looking for pure hearts and clean hands. Those who have ears to hear will hear. Those who continue to rely on their own opinion, own agendas and own desires will fall at the waste side. Pray for them dear ones, pray for them fervently. For your King is coming and has his reward in hand!

 This is all for now my little one, my very precious little one .I love you dearly my beloved child. Go now in the peace and courage of your God.”

-From Jesus With Love

The Power Of Your Prayers

March 14, 2020


I woke up that day feeling somewhat somber, it had snowed and there was no sun. I left the front community house and went into St. Joseph’s hermitage to pray. I love being away, alone with my beloved. Just to contemplate him, to pour out my heart to him and just to be in his presence.

Whiles in prayer, praying the rosary I saw Blessed Mother so beautiful in her glory.  She was hovering over every prayer petition listening so attentively and then acting on it immeaditley. First I prayed for the schools and I saw her hovering over all the universities praying along side with me, then I prayed over the children as she extended her arms and mantle over all the children of the world. Then I prayed over all the mosque and nations of Islam for conversion. I saw her hovering over different mosque releasing graces and dictating  prayers in her authority. Indeed she is truly the Queen of Heaven. In awe at this vision and still a bit unsure I came before the Lord after prayer saying,

Lord is there anything on your heart? I feel as though you were giving me some thoughts on the power of prayer. Oh Lord by faith I write ( I said smiling),l forgive me Lord


Jesus began,

Oh my little one, my beloved one, I am right here. I see how you have been assailed with so many doubts and fears. This is an assignment not only against you, but the community, and the world at large especially in your nation. I want you all to began praying against a spirit a fear, doubt, and unbelief. Run to my Mother in the rosary to take down this strong man of fear. That will keep many captive, held in darkness and many moving by their emotions rather than my will. So please pray against these things. Truly, when your focus is kept on me alone, I alone am your rock and will give you peace. I alone am your anchor admits the prevailing winds and waters that desire to turn you away from the direction I am taking you dear one, so pray.

 I do want to talk with you concerning the power of prayer. Indeed how sublime it is. It’s never by the eloquence of your speech, how much scripture you know or the words you even say, but it’s about the condition and state of your heart. Prayer is to look within yourself, where I dwell and lift all things to heaven. Wether it’s good or bad and give me thanks. It is to yield yourself to the will of the Father and placing yourself in your rightful position. Right before my throne, trusting confidently that I hear the petition of your heart. Your every thought and sigh that is lifted to me. For you are indeed seated in heavenly places. Oh how my people have lost this and continue to walk in unbelief and lack of faith in prayer. Do they not realize I desire to move through my vessels when they pray. 

History is indeed written by prayer. If the knew the power of their most simplest prayer revival, change would’ve have come so long ago, but once again traditions and eloquence of man have taken their position instead.

 Many shy away from prayer because of so many lies that have creeped in the church. That you must be anointed, that prayer is a gift some have and some don’t. That you must be able to prayer with large words or intention, or the worst of all that you can’t pray as a sinner. That I wont hear you. Lies, lies lies, I hear the prayers of the most lowliest of people and of the most wicked. For the sun shines on the righteous and the unrighteous (Matthew 5:45).

 It is about the state of your heart. If anyone would pray with belief, faith, and trust that I will hear them. I am there with ears opened to hear what they say knowing already their need before thy speak (Matthew 6:8). All of heaven hears the prayers of the people on earth. The most purest of hearts are those prayers said by those who pray my will. So that is the most important thing to seek when praying. Is to seek my will and give me thanks for what I do and I allow. 

 Also my Mothers prayers are POWERFUL. So many lies have been told concerning the rosary. How the demons hate her and her intercession. They will do anything to stop or hinder the prayers of the rosary from going forth, but I will not allow it. Tell them to pray the rosary, pray with intention and wholeheartedness. Seek to have my Mother as their prayer partner. Just as you saw, as you pray she takes every request as her own and she stays with those request until it comes to fulfillment according to my will. Indeed her Immaculate Heart will triumph in the end. I say all these things to encourage you, those in the community and my little ones who are praying. Who feel they is no fruit to be seen or found. My people continue to pray, keep praying. Your are sowing seeds on good soil, fields and grounds. In time very soon there will be copious fruit ripe at the seems. As praises rise up from the ends of the earth because of my mercy and faithfulness. So pray, dear ones pray.” 

-From Jesus With Love

You Are My Treasure

March 12, 2020


 I woke up this morning with my body feeling so sore and very uneasy. I wasn’t sure if I had offended the Lord in anyway or it was a suffering because it was really hard to connect  with Jesus in worship. However, all the songs he was playing over me were about His peace and not to fear so I felt in my heart this was an attack of some sort. 

I ended up talking to Mother Clare and Father  Ezekiel last night for a while. iI was a rough day when I felt so discouraged thinking I had been deceived in discernment with one of the messages I got from Jesus.  It took me into self pity real fast. 

However, they both helped me discern that message in question was from the Lord. Help me Lord, truly to combat this fear, doubt and unbelief in hearing your voice.

Then the community gathered together in the morning and Blessed Mother began to speak to Mother Clare.  She was crying because she had missed their intimate relationship they once had, It was so sweet and encouraged me to go much more deeper with Blessed Mother when praying the rosary as well. We prayed for those affected with the virus. After receiving the Lord I feel so at peace thank you Jesus!

I came to him saying, My beloved Lord is there anything on your heart?

Jesus began,

“’I am right here beloved indeed the graces are flowing on this mountain, in this community in a beautiful way. You all are my faithful ones.  The ones who answered the invitation to my banquet when my Father called. You are the lame, the crippled and blind ones in the eyes of the world, but to me you are my beautiful treasures. For it is the sick that are in need of God not the righteous. Many have turned aside and walked in their own way, but you all have been faithful to endure and preserver with every test that has come against this community and because of your love for me you have withstood every attempt to get you off this mountain. So you all will be richly rewarded indeed encourage, your brother.

(Here Jesus speaking of a soul in the community, one of my brothers. Who has been desiring to hear the Lords voice, but feel hopeless in his efforts)

Many have the same sentiments. Your brothers, tell them in time as they press in the very same grace to hear and see me will given to them. They must just excercise their faith and cast away doubt, fear, pride and comparison. Which stops many from entering into conversations with me . You know a thing or two about that beloved.

(At this point I was writing, but still doubting and of course as usual Jesus reads my thoughts)

 Please stop your worrying, how that hurts me so much. Your lack of trust and confidence in me after all I have done and all we have been through Mary Elisha. 

(My heart just melted when he said that)

 I desire to talk with you. I desire to fellowship and communion with you. If I could have my way we would talk for hours, but it would be too much for your mind to comprehend little one. My words are of eternal importance so I must give you a little at a time. There is only so much you can take in, meditate on, and apply to your life circumstances. Even now I see the intensity you are feeling. These will go with time, remember the enemy hates this more than anything beloved. He will do whatever he can in order to take this grace and gift from you. He will do this with all of you so share with them some of the obstacles you have had to overcome in hearing me.”


Lord sorry I guess I didn’t want to inflate myself or stir anyone up in jealously because I have been there,. You know like “Ooh I am hearing from the Lord”.


Jesus responded,

“Well my beloved one it’s not about you dear. It’s for other so please share. It will strengthen your brethren and those who desire this intimacy with me”


Okay Lord

That is all for now little one continue to come before me every day and allow me to express my heart to you dear. Continue to pray for this community, and Mother Clare especially she will need much wisdom and discernment in the coming days for precise direction. I love you so much words could not be enough to say. You are my beloved in whom I am well pleased.

– From Jesus With Love

“Many Have Taken My Mercy For Granted, Pray!”

I had just come from a ministry trip down in the valley and from talking to Mother Clare and Father Ezekiel about how it went. I was headed back to my place when I  saw my brothers outside conversing so I joined them for a bit although it was pretty late. I got home around 11:30 pm and I  was so tired. However, I desired to seek the Lord to see what was on his heart for me to do with the rest of my evening I got “Laziness”  in the Bible Promises. 

I knew it was about me journaling because I told him when I got back today I would journal tonight to hear his heart, but anxiety was overtaking me again….goodness. So I asked the Lord again and got “Hospitality” which always means to me for me He is wanting me to use my gifts. I knew it, so I asked the Lord again if he wanted me to journal got “Holy Spirit”.


Per my previous blog the Lord has impressed on my heart to begin journaling daily again.  Oh boy how I was still struggle with that…easy as breathing huh ,Lord lol. That morning I had to rush through prayer because we had to go down to the valley to visit our neighbors and what fun that was.  Since being up here on the mountain the Lord had put it on Mother Clare heart to start a food ministry. Where we go door to door giving families in the valley at the base of the mountain food but also ministering to them the love of Jesus.  We started with 8 families just simply knocking on doors asking if they wanted food. It has since grown to 16 people and 13 families in total we now do bible study with and some even receive communion!

I hold their names, their prayers and family situation deep in my heart. Most that day were welcoming, but I just felt in my heart that many had dead faith you know. I’m not sure if I’m being presumptuous, but maybe I am. Everyone seemed to say they knew the Lord but seemed so formal in their conversation about him. I was sensing that I needed to pray “the dead bones would rise in the valley and dead faith be set a flame for the Lord. Here I am praying for dead faith to come to life upon my neighbors when I am struggling with the same thing. Faith to believe that Jesus will speak to me and that he wants to speak to me.

So I came before Jesus with all these thoughts in my heart from what had taken place that day. Lord  you wanted me to come before you believing you would speak to me by faith. I am coming to you to hear your heart.

Lord is there anything you want to say?


Jesus began,

“My heart is breaking for this nation my beloved one. They have no idea what things are in store for them. Terrible, terrible, plans that man and the evil one have concocted to cause this nation upheaval and distress. I want you to pray, pray, pray, little one. Pray for your nation, pray for your president, and pray for your loved ones that they may see the truth. Past the media lies, see the truth past the walls in their conscience they have created in order to not go any deeper with me. Many are so blind by the numerous offenses and sins that are done against me every day. Many have taken my mercy for granted dear one, but I will no longer keep relenting if the hearts of the people in this nation continue on in their stiff neck ways. Then I must allow what is planned to wake many up, my little one. How my heart grieves for my children. So many that continue to reject my love and spit on my mercy. Many who call themselves my own feel they have no need of my mercy because in their eyes they are good. They are in right standing with me, but that is just it..it’s in their Own Eyes and not in my mirror. Pray that hardened hearts would be soften and they would be willing to take a good look in my mirror and be humbled. Remember in the Rick Joyner book how he too shuddered at the door of judgment but, once entering through the door found it to be the greatest treasure and door in heaven. He then asked that he may come to know my judgments more clearly on earth that he may serve me more perfectly. 

(As an aside here Jesus is referencing to the Rick Joyner book called “Final Quest” which I encourage every believer to read!)

Jesus continued,

I have given you that grace daughter and have answered that prayer, you prayed so long ago. Now pray for your brethren to do the same. To seek my judgments here on earth that they may indeed serve me more perfectly and that they wouldn’t then be judged when they see me at the throne.”

I said,

 Lord I hope this is you. 

( I was hesitating, doubting thinking these were my own thoughts. Furthermore, I was struggling because the words didn’t seem as regal and wise as Mother Clare’s “Jesus”,  or St. Faustina’s “Jesus” etc. You see, here I was comparing myself with others. I’m such a hotmess, Lord forgive me. 

Jesus sensed these thoughts in my heart and said,
“Keep writing my little one I speak to you in a way that you will understand and others will understand as well. As simple as a child because that what you are to me, my child. That is all for now my dear one, continue to come before me every day writing because it’s not for your sole benefit. As I mentioned before, but for others my dear one. This fast is very serious and I take your prayers and those of the community very serious. It’s a sweet aroma to me and all of heaven, so continue to pray for your nation and your prayers will be honored. Now rest in me tonight beloved”

-From Jesus With Love

Hearing From Me Is As Easy As Breathing

Hello family,

It has been a long while since I wrote a blog forgive me for my absence. I have been really busy here in the community and also my Youtube Channel however, the Lord reminded me that I wasn’t feed the flock on the website. Moreover,

he really wanted to get his messages out. To spread his writings and words far and wide to bring hope to many. Before I was just writing down things I have experienced and lessons Jesus was teaching me. However, now Jesus has restored the grace of hearing his voice. So I will be sharing the messages he gives me everyday so that you maybe encouraged and strengthened as well!

Since my fall in discernment last year I lost the grace to hear his voice. If I can be honest I was saddened but a bit relieved because I would always become so full of anxiety when trying to have conversations with Jesus or write down what I thought he was saying. The devils would pound me with doubt, unbelief, fear and so much anxiety that I would be deceived again and more over that I was just talking to myself. So it had 9 months and I had became comfortable just getting rhema words from him and getting instructions through the books I read. Also through my spiritual covering as well. Mother Clare who is my spiritual mother, told me that she wanted me to began journaling again. So despite by hesitation and fears I had to be obedient so I began today writing all that happened during prayer

I woke up this morning after having a dream with a friend of mine in it where he gave me some ice cream to eat. I ate it all there were more to the dream but I didn’t remember I then asked Holy Spirit the dreams with me eating something is that spiritual warfare/ witch craft and I got in the BP “Holy Spirit” 1 John 2:27. By the way BP is referring to the Bible Promise I use for discernment. It is a tool Jesus has given us to use to go deeper in discerning his will and its only $2.99 on Amazon. I encourage every believer to use this for discernment as well.  So thought, uh oh and felt I needed to really pray in the spirit. 

Then I went outside to use the restroom and I saw on a bucket the word “ SCEPTER” and I knew that meant authority. I felt the Lord was reminding me to use my authority. As I set with him in adoration for a bit I began to readings from the Bible and various holy books to get some direction from Him. I got readings on “Guilt” and the last reading I got was titled “Hearing and Seeing Jesus”. What stuck out to me that it said “99% of the time we don’t hear or see Jesus because of our unbelief or false guilt …self-hatred of ourselves so thought the Lord then maybe wanted to speak to me”

I thought okay maybe Jesus wants me to practice again hearing his voice.

So I came to him writing in my journal saying,

 Lord from all of the readings you gave me this morning in prayer I feel in my heart you are wanting us to use our scepters, the authority given to us by consecrated a fast and praying for repentance for ourselves and our nation Lord?

Lord is there anything on your heart?

Jesus began,
My Beloved daughter why so tense and full of anxiety I am right here with you. I have always been and dwell within you little one. No need to fear, my desire is that you would began to hear and see me more clearly but, it has been a water gate of guilt that has stopped you from coming to me. Hence all the readings I gave you today were in reference to the steep condemnation and unbelief you were walking in. There is much I want to tell you and much I desire for you to be prepared for. 

I am so proud of you my  little one, Mother Mary Elisha that name suites you very much. I will use you to speak as an oracle on my behalf. Many won’t listen, many will rebel and many will disregard my words to you because of your stature, your demeanor, and how you look but, be not dismayed you are my voice.  I have put my words in to your mouth even though many times they may be strong words don’t fear. 

For as Father Ezekiel said your words, your prayers, will be those that snatch your brethren from the edge. So don’t fear little one, the fruit you bare will be much later but, walk in obedience to me and to your superiors Mother and Father Ezekiel. You are indeed blessed to have them as your shepherd and overseers. They adore you and love you very much, don’t take their wisdom and council for granted. Never do that dear one, I will always honor your obedience to them rather than any sacrifice you give. For when you honor them you, honor me. 

Now I want to talk to you about what is to come. I have called you here on this mountain as a beacon of hope for all nations and a source of light for those who are in darkness. Don’t think everyone I send here will be fit to walk in the Franciscan vocation but, many will come in their season to grow, to be stretched, to be purified, and then to be taught if they are willing to yield to the authorities I have put overhead in this community. If they don’t they too will leave in a while but, your job my little one is to love, love, and then love some more. You here not only to pray but, to be an example  of my love to all your brothers in lowliness, in humility, and in meekness. Submit to all my beloved and don’t take offense I want you to really work on that my love 

 Lord I can’t work at anything please help give me the grace Lord too truly have this attitude of heart its so hard for me Lord

Jesus responded,

I know beloved that is one of your greatest weaknesses and my greatest strength in you. So the graces have been given, but you must have a better resolve dear one. Don’t get lax daisy and when you feel that way just call upon me and I will be near. Of course always run to my Mother, she is a treasure trove full of graces and mercies dear one. She is the one cradling, nurturing and pruning you through all of this. You are my special gift to her dear one.”


Thank you Lord!

(However, I was doubting again and being filled with anxiety to stop writing and Jesus could sense that)

Jesus read my thoughts,

I see you tensing up already. Ease up my little one, ease up take a deep breath. I want you to write all that I say to your heart. Receiving my thoughts and love for you as easy as breathing

 Lord you make it sounds so easy, (at this point I was thinking Jesu has to be kidding it is so hard for me, the anxiety and the doubt are overwhelming)

Jesus responded,

But it is my beloved when you have faith and confidence in me. That it’s not what you do, or how you feel but you come in my presence because you know I love you. You know I desire you and you know I want to speak to you. Not only for your sake for the sake of others my little one

 Oh Lord please helps


Jesus continued,

I am here for you my beloved I truly am. Share these things with Mother Clare let her council be your guide dear one. You are truly blessed, extremely blessed dear just always remember the greater the privilege the greater the humility dear. That should cause you to go lower, lower, and even lower loving your littleness and nothingness and seeing me as your all in all.

Me: Okay Lord thank you so much Jesus I trust in you, Jesus I trust in you, Jesus I trust in you

That was the end of the message from Jesus, with Love!

The Stench of Gossip

“The sin of Gossip is like a smelly diaper before me and all of heaven”  -Jesus


Yes, Gossip has a stench to it whew, I have stunk a time or two….okay if I can be honest many times. Gossip is when you speak about someone negatively and they are not present to defend themselves. Furthermore, in the eyes of the Lord gossip is even when you THINK negatively about someone in your heart. Some may object and say wait a minute but, I didn’t speak bad about anyone so how can that be gossip? We forget that the Lord dwells in our hearts. John 14:23
So if he dwells in our hearts then Jesus and all of heaven hears our every thought.


Psalm 139:2-4 You know when I sit down and when I get up. You know my thoughts before I think them. You know where I go and where I lie down. You know everything I do. Lord, even before I say a word, you already know it. (NCV translation)


You see in heaven everything is transparent, every thought is known before the Lord and all the saints. Not just when we arrive there but even now, how embarrassing! It makes you take a good look at your heart attitude and the thoughts of your heart to ensure they are pure. That is what the Lord is desiring a people, a bride with a pure heart, pure motive, and pure thoughts to dwell in. A pure heart to the Lord is irresistible and many of us speak with our lips concerning the things of God but, our hearts are far from him.


Matthew 15:8 These people honor me with their lips but their hearts are far from me.


Gossip is such a serious offense because not only do you speak against your brother or sister but, in actuality anytime you gossip you are speaking against Jesus himself. We forget many times that Christ too lives in that person, whether they know him or not they are an image of him. So when we speak against anyone out loud or in our hearts we “scourge” the Lord all over again. We put him back on the cross beating him not with whips as did the Roman soldiers but with our words. Not only that but you open a door for the demons to sift you and the person you were gossiping too. Gossip is a double edge sword as it causes you to sin and the other person you were speaking too, even if they just listened it’s a sin as well. Don’t let them spread whatever it is you told them because now you have caused a greater breach for more demons to come and many more to fall into sin. 


There was a story that I was told concerning Gossip where a lady went into confession and told a priest that she had sinned by Gossip. The priest told the women go home get a pillow and cut it. Then pour all the contents of the pillow outside your window. So she did as the priest instructed then came back to him he then told her to go back and pick up each feather that had been poured out the pillow. She retorted why that is impossible and the priest let her know that’s how it was when she gossiped. It will be impossible to repair the damage as it has spread everywhere.


The same goes with the contents of our hearts when we think a negative thought about someone it spreads through our hearts and all of heaven. When we then approach the Lord we come with unconfessed sin and with this stench that is so repugnant to him and all of heaven. Twice the Lord has shown me the sin of Gossip in my own heart. Once, was when I had just started to do communion and had a beautiful picture of the Lord in front of me. I had just consecrated the bread and wine then all of a sudden an invisible force knocked down the cup spilling the Lords blood everywhere and on his photo. I was completely shocked and flabbergasted, I knew this was an attack but why would the Lord allow his body and blood to be desecrated in that way. I knew I had opened a door so I went to my rhema book and I got “Gossip”. I was stiff in fear, humility and lost for words as I saw the blood just running down the picture of his face.  Initially I was confused because I knew how devastating it was to Gossip and tried very hard not to speak against anyone then the Lord made me to know it was the conversations of my heart he had heard. Where I spoke against a brother in my heart.  I couldn’t believe it and began to cry in repentance that I had hurt the Lord so deeply. That indeed when I spoke against this brother in my heart I had blooded the Lord all over again with my words. That is how devastating Gossip of the mouth and heart is to the Lord.


Then another time was just today, here on the mountain. I found myself discontent, grumbling in my heart having to clean a feces bucket that was for my superiors. I had thought to myself why they couldn’t do it. I immediately tried to cast down the thought but, it was too late it had slipped into my heart then I heard the Lord admonish me saying


“I respect my servants very much anyone who treats them with scorn and contempt will pay severely for it”


“Gulp” lump in throat moment wouldn’t you say? Then I got home asking the Lord what he wanted me to do with my time using my bible promises book. Which I use for discernment and I got “Gossip” another lump in my throat and of course I objected really examining my conversations I had throughout the day. However I remembered my grumbling from earlier and asked the Lord was he talking about the attitude of my heart and the negative thought I had. I got “Holy Spirit oh another lump in my throat but, the good thing is it led me to write this blog lol. As the Lord continues to have me bare my weakness and his correction in my soul so others can learn.


So what has been the conversations of your heart? If people could read your mind would it line up with what your mouth is saying? Have you had negative conversations about others in your heart as if no one can hear you forgetting God can and all of heaven? Sorry to say you are stinking right about now. So repent before the Lord in your heart and confess these thoughts with the person you were thinking so negatively about to ensure you leave no doors open for the demons to sift you. More importantly examine your heart and take every thought captive that rises up against God or your brother/sister. God bless you!

-From Jesus With Love

New Year, New Habit

imagejpeg952

October 4th, 2019 I took vows for my vocation as sister of the Fransican Oblate of Mount Carmel which so happened to be St. Francis of Assisi “ feast day”. It was the most exiciting, emotional, nerve racking day of my life lol. That is, the day I officilay said goodbye to the world and took on my new name and earthly garments… my habit

As a protestant growing up I was unaware of who St. Francis of Assisi was or the saints at large. I didn’t know very much about the “religious life” only what I had seen on TV, with nuns and monks. My dad however, is Catholic and upon me giving my life to Jesus he had mentioned to me that maybe I should join a catholic convent because I was so zealous for the Lord. Immeaditely I retored in my pride that the Lord was not into denominations and I didn’t need to join a covent to walk out my faith.” Oh my, how I reaked with pride and still do but the Lord is truly bringing me lower and lower in humility as he shows me the nothing I truly am. So now 2 years later, I have taken my religious vows and joined the order of one of the greatest saints, who would’ve thought… I know Jesus did lol. He is the only one who could’ve taken a fashion designer pursuing the world, success, honor, fame and put her in the most beautiful garment in all the world…a habit.

1 John 2:15 Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him.

You see St. Francis took those words quite literally, and all of God’s word. His heart burned to live out the gospel just as Jesus did and by the Lords grace he did just that. He was a son of a wealthy merchant who was also into the high life. He embarked on a military career where he wanted to become a knight. However, through a serious of illness which stopped this pursuit and 2 visions from God. The Divine intervened and he began to pursue the Lord and in a church looking upon a cross he heard Jesus say “Go, Francis and repair my church, which as you see is falling into ruin”. Francis immeaditely thought the Lord was speaking about the church he was in, St. Damaian which was run down. So he went to his Fathers shop and sold all the fine linens to get money to rebuild the church. The Father was irate, renounced him, beat Francis, took him to trial before the Bishop of his time demanding all the money back. The Bishop at the time told him to give his Fathers money back and that the Lord would provide for him to rebuild the church. At that point Francis, had a divine enlightened as the scripture from Matthew came to his mine “ Our Father who are in Heaven”. He renounced his entire family, father, fortune and realized now had a Father in heaven who would provide for him. He needed no connection with the world, he stripped off all his clothes gave them to his Father as the Bishop covered him and as he turned his back literally on the world. He then placed upon himself “ a brown potatoe sackcloth” as his garment of choice. To love our lady Poverty as our Lord Jesus did

St. Francis, heart burned to live the gospel out literally by these scriptures revealed to him by the Lord.

Matthew 10:8 Freely have you received freely give.

Luke 9:3 “Take nothing for your journey,” he instructed them. Don’t take a walking stick, a traverlers bag, good, money or even a change of clothes”

Matthew 19:21 Jesus answered, “if you want to be perfect, go, sell your possesions and give to the poor, and you will have treasures in heaven. Then come, follow me”

Francis took these words literally and lived out these scriptures unto his death which have impacted the church still centuries later. These same scriptures the Lord burned in my heart to take very seriously and literally. After losing my job, I began to give all my things away, giving to the poor and he desires for me not too charge any fee in anything that I do or give becaue I have freely reiceved. So coming to New Mexico I had no idea what the Lord had in store and didn’t know what to expect. However, it was after a month of being here that I learned Father and Mother Clare where Fransiscan and as we watched the movie “ Brother sun, sister Moon” about the life of St. Francis of Assisi my heart burned yet again. This is always wanted I wanted, or better yet what the Lord wanted for me! I just didn’t see any example in front of me to follow.

Now putting on the habit was a different story, when I found out that I would have too, or let me rephrase that. That I would get to wear the habit for the rest of my life as a wedding garment unto the Lord I was repulsed at first. I could live the life of a Franscican with the Lords help but, to really let go of the world in that way, I wasn’t sure I was ready for it. It took about 2 more months after watching that film then one day the Lord impressed it on Father Ezekiels heart that he wanted his bride in a habit NOW. No more waiting, not only that but, he wanted to give me a new name I was perplexed to say the least. After hearing these things which I couldn’t object too my heart was racing. I came face to face with the reality that maybe my heart was still in the world, I was so attached to my looks, my persona, and my name. My, my, my sheesh, does someone need to die to self or what lol. Immeaditly I told them I would adhere to the Lords request but, if they would give me a moment too to talk with him. So I ran to Blessed Mothers prayer tree and just bared my heart too her. I told her about my fears, anxieties, and once again what people would think. However, I told her if Jesus wanted this I wanted it too but please give me the peace and fill my heart to love the Lords will. She did just that as she always does!! Blessed Mother is the best, I found myself within an hour flooded with such peace , joy and even a new name. I heard in my spirit “ your name is Mary Elisha, Mary Elisha” so I sought the Lord on discernment and he confirmed that was him.

So on Oct 4th, which we didn’t plan for but Jesus did, I took my religious vows and made a professed my vocation as a third order Franscain oblate. Nana, died that day for the world and all of heaven too see as my witnessess that I indeed had renounced the world and had taken up my wedding garment from the Lord, my habit. An oblate is simply the noun tense of an Oblation which means: a thing presented or offered to God. So one who has made an offering of their life to God as a living sacrifice, picking up their cross daily and following Jesus. The grey habit is to signify “sackcloth” and the brown portion of my garment is called a scapular. It represents Our Blessed Mother who came to one of the Carmelite saints “Simon Stock” wearing the same habit in an apparition. She was wearing the brown scapular and holding a scapular that goes around your neck. Also holding infant Jesus who was wearing the same thing. The scapular represents our servanthood putting the apron on, washing the feet of all those we meet and a brown cord with 5 knots for our 5 vows. A vow of chasity (which is faithfulness to the Lord), a vow of obedience, a vow of holy poverty, a vow of substantial prayer and a vow of substantial solitude. Carmelites dedicated their lives very much like Prophet Elijah and Elisha in prayer and solitude.

I took off the old life, the old nature, the old creation which belongs to my former manner of life which was corrupt with deceitful desires and now have put on my new self, increated after the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness. I have been made new! My habit is a sign to my family, friends and the world that I no longer belong to the world nor love the world but have been sent as the Lords’s bride and disciple to serve, love, honor all in humility, simplicy and poverty.

I hope you get a “New Habit” this year too!

imagejpeg950

-From Jesus With Love

God Do You See Me

Screen Shot 2019-12-21 at 6.46.28 PM

 

The God who sees

The God who knows you

The God who created you

The God who formed you

Isaiah 43:1

But now, thus says the Lord who created you, O Jacob, and He who formed you, O Israel;

Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;

I have called you by your name; you are Mine.

For the past two days this scripture has been going through my mind and heart as I began to really meditate deeply on each word, each sentence over and over again allowing it to sink deeply in my heart. That this was not just a prophecy that Isaiah was speaking to Israel nor was it just for our for Father Jacob but this scripture was meant for me…for you. The Lord is speaking directly to me and to everyone of his children who have felt forgotten, rejected, and even worthless. This all began after watching the amazing TV sereis “ The Chosen” which I encourage all believers to watch and to please share with everyone. It has touched my heart in way that I can’t explain. It’s a sereis about the life of Jesus, I know some maybe reading this and thinking yea we have seen so many Jesus movies but, this one is different. The writing is so impeciable that it has to be truly Holy Spiirt inspired and heavenly indeed. It depicts not only the life of Jesus but, his heart, personality, character also that of all the apostles and their lives before encountering Jesus. You get to know each one, their own stories and life who they were and how they became different after meeting the Messiah.  It draws you in so deeply, and the first season leaves you hanging for so much more. 

The first episode introduces Matthew, Simon Peter , Andrew, Nicodemus and the main character of the episode Mary Magdalene. It shows her life in despair not only by being a prostitue by the name of “lilith” but dealing with demonic manifistations that cause her to go into spells where the demons attack people. It shows her in the beginning as a small girl , innocent and scared ccoming to her father who remindes her to recite Isaiah 43:1 anytime she is afriad. She has a doll that she is holding and now older has kept that doll and tries to recite the prayers after the demonic spell but to no avial  she tares the prayer up and throws it in the water. She becomes hopeless and was about to commit sucicde then Jesus comes. As she enters a tavern drinking a concution to num her from the pain Jesus, the Messiah appears seemingly out of no where telling her that she doesn’t have to do that any more. The demons within her want to run from Jesus so she asked Him to leave her alone and begans to walk out of the tavern. Jesus follows her out and calls her by her real name “Mary of Magdala”. She is utter shock and says who are you and he recites Isiah 43:1….Thus says the Lord who created you…
It ends with her breaking in tears in his arms as he frees her from all the demons.

This scene has replayed over and over in my mind. I have never been a prostitue or raped but, how I can relate to Mary Magdalene if we were honest we all can. I was once a girl who was hurt by the world and striving to be seen. I was once a girl who was afraid, felt so forgotten by God and thought my prayers fell on empty ears. I was once a a girl tormented by demonic attacks, so fearful of the dark and thought the demons had power over me. I was once a girl who was insecure and wasn’t happy with who I was. I was once a girl who felt hopeless thinking “this is the story of my life” nothing would ever change as certain cycles would happen over and over again.  THEN I MET HIM, I MET JESUS and just one look my way changed everything.

It was through my first prophetic word from my cousin October 2014 after 29 years of living life for myself, praying empty prayers, crying out to the Lord but not seeing any manifestation when she said “God has not forgotten you…help is on the way”  with tears in my eyes that I realized “He sees me”. He had heard every cry of my heart before then, had heard every prayer and catched every tear, he saw me. Then after that I made a decision to give my life to him fully surrendering Jan 1, 2015 telling him I was afraid to give him complete control but, I would if he wanted it then immeaditely my phone dinged with a notification which happened to be the bible verse of the day 

Isaiah 41:10
Don’t be afraid for I am your God, Don’t be discouraged for I am with you. I am here to help you and strengthen you. I will lift you up victoriously with my right hand

“He saw me again and answered me” I was in tears, God sees me. You beloved one, reading this God sees you too, he hears you, He is right there with you, and he will never leave you. Since seeing this episode my heart has been burden for the many who feel forgotten by God the many who don’t realize how personal and familiar he is in our day to day lives. He is God who does life with us and he is speaking all the time but, many don’t recognize it. As we tend to base on our relationship with God on how are lives are going rather than who He is. Hagar is great example being some one of a lower class in her time, a servant to Sarah, Abraham wife and not only that but his mistress who bore Ishmael. Who wasn’t even the promised child but when Sarah got upset with Hagar and jealous kicking her and Ishamel out of the house God saw her and met her where she was at.In the wilderness with a hungry child who was dying, a servant, low income, of no worth in the eyes of the world, a mistress, with a bastard child yet God saw her and heard her cry and delivered her. As she cried out “He is the God who sees”

Genesis 16:13
She gave this name to the LORD who spoke to her: “You are the God who sees me,” for she said, “I have now seen the One who sees me.”

I don’t know what is going on in your life, or who the world has labled you to be. You may be of no worth in the eyes of the world, your peers, your family, your loved one or even your spouse. You may feel so alone, hurting so bad, tormented even but I am here to tell you that God sees you beloved. He knows you by name, He created you and formed every detail of your being. From the number of hairs on your head, to that that figure you don’t like so much, to that nose you complain about to that character flaw you wish you could get rid of, to that heart only He can see and repair. Yes my beloved one, He knows you by name, so don’t fear anymore. Don’t fear the storm that is surrounding you, don’t fear the past that you regret or the future that you cannot see, don’t fear being alone because He will always be with you. He has redeemed every detail of your life and you are his. Before the foundation of the world, yes, the Holy One of Israel, Jesus Christ breathed you from his heart  and sent you into this world. And the day you were born he told all of heaven and earth “THIS ONE, IS MINE”. You are His beloved and he has great things in store for you don’t give up He loves you. Help is on the way…God sees you.

-From Jesus With Love

Thank You For The Fire

Screen Shot 2019-12-09 at 12.51.40 PM

 

Fire purifies

Fire refines

Fire purifies

Fire burns

Fire is hot

Fire gives off light

Fire is able to ignite everything it touches.

Fire stands out

Jesus will always be with you in the Fire

Daniel 3:25
He said, “Look! I see four men walking around in the fire, unbound and unharmed, and the fourth looks like a son of Man”

I was in adoration before the Lord a couple of days ago in worship, when he played the song “ Thank you for the Fire” by Ginny Owens and the song struck my heart so deeply. My walk with the Lord has been full of many trials however these past few months where the most fieriest trials yet however, as I found myself before him in such peace and full of hope I can actually say with my whole heart “ Thank you Lord, for the Fire”. 

As believers we repeat this common phrase often in prayer, conversations, in our worship music “ Lord set me on fire”, “Lord burn in me”, “Lord make me a living sacrafice”…..urm do we really know what that means? lol That is one of the most dangerious prayers and phrases to cry out to the Lord because he will do just that. To be set on fire for the Lord is to go through the fire to be purified, refined, crushed, pressed until all that remains is him burning within you. Many want the fire of God but, are not willing to burn in suffering and trials to obtain that purity and refinement that he uses for our good for his glory. I too cried out to the Lord so many times in worship and in prayer that I wanted to be set on fire for him, that he should burn everything in me that is not of him, that I wanted to be a living sacrafice a sweet aroma to him and he is doing just that so Lord I thank you.

Jesus said if you wish to follow me you must deny yourself pick up your cross and follow me”. The Lord has created designer crosses for each of us which come with designer fires as well or fireary trials. The crosses in our lives he speaks about are any pain, inconvenice, test, or trials from the greatest to the ones we think so insignificant are crosses we get to carry for the Lord for salvation of souls. A simon’s cross, we will all suffer in this world but when you unite your sufferig to Jesus offering all that he is permitting to him then you are denying your (self-love)  carrying your cross and following Jesus. There you will indeed find your faith and the greatest intimacy with Jesus. Some of these cross come in a form of fieary trials a death of a loved one, sickness, betrayl, being slandred with defimation of character, false accusations, demonic attack or oppression, troubled or sick child or family memember, infidelity, sudden loss of income/job, persecution, false imprisonment, injustice, sexual or emotional abuse just to name a very few. These are trials the Lord allows in many of his childrens lives to refine them to purity as they also grow in faith and much virtue.

WHEN YOU TRUST God In the fire you will find HEAT which allows all foriegn fragments and particles to rise to the surface of your heart to be cleaned. You will find what it is you really belive by your reaction and response as the Lord begans to create a Pure heart within you that responds like Christ “Father nevertheless not my will be done yours be done”. In the fire you will find THE MOUTH OF YOUR ENEMIES CLOSED. Just as Daniel found the lions mouths shut you will see the Lords hands of deliverance as you continue to trust him even in the midst of heat all around you. In the fire you will find supernatural PEACE that passes all understanding that will keep your heart and eyes fixed on him alone. There will always be FOUR PEOPLE IN THE FIRE…. You, Father, JESUS and Holy Spirit!! Just as he was with Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego he too will be your sole companion in the fire the one to carry you through, protect you and deliver you. In the fire you will have great intimacy with Jesus because he is nearest to those with a brokenheart because when you suffer he suffers too. In the fire you will find THAT HE PLACED WITNESSES TO WATCH YOUR TRIAL UNFOLD TO TESTIFY OF HIS GLORY! Just as he did with Daniel even his enemies were astonished at God’s saving power and were looking for them to be burned by the fire and just as Job’s friends who came rather not to console him but, to admonish him in his trial. However, the Lord used them to witness his deliverance and restoration power in Job’s life.

Daniel 3:26-28

26 Nebuchadnezzar then approached the opening of the blazing furnace and shouted, “Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego, servants of the Most High God, come out! Come here!”

So Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego came out of the fire, 27 and the satraps, prefects, governors and royal advisers crowded around them. They saw that the fire had not harmed their bodies, nor was a hair of their heads singed; their robes were not scorched, and there was no smell of fire on them.

28 Then Nebuchadnezzar said, “Praise be to the God of Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego, who has sent his angel and rescued his servants! They trusted in him and defied the king’s command and were willing to give up their lives rather than serve or worship any god except their own God.

So don’t you see the Fireary trial you are going through right now is purifying your heart to be conformed to the image of Christ. It is testing your faith so that you will have unmovable confidence in the Lord. It is growing your character so that may be able to obtain the fullness of grace he has for you. It is teaching you patience so you may be fully persuaded in the Lords faithfulness. It is growing you in brothlery love and teaching you not to be moved by the opnions of men. It is strenghting your trust in the Lord so that you will rely soley on him. It is growing you in virtue and sanctifying you so that you may be blamless and spotless on that day lacking nothing. So my friends began to thank the Lord for the Fire, thank him for his immense mercy and grace towards you. Thank him for his faithfulness and amazing love he has bestowed on you to draw you so close to him in this way. Thank him for his goodness, for the amazing testimony he has already written for you that will indeed be for your good and His glory as many souls will be won upon hearing your story .

Thank him for the Fire, for the greater the Fire, the greater the refinement, the greater the faith, the greater the intimacy, the greater the testimony and the greater the LIGHT that will blaze for him for all the world to see!! 

Jesus I thank you for the FIRE!!!

-From Jesus with Love