Stock Up…. To Give To The Poor

March 17, 2020,Journal entry

I was doing the Lord supper, however all these thoughts are coming to my mind as I was praying the rosary. I felt in my heart, the Lord wanted to speak. Although, I wasn’t done yet nor had I received him in communion yet. So I decided to stop praying for a second and allow him to share His heart with me. I thought to myself something Mother Clare says all the time “The rosary is indeed a ladder to Jesus”. As I thought if Blessed Mother has taken me to your heart already through the rosary prayer. I don’t want to follow routine and not hear from him because usually I begin the Lords Supper then, do all of my prayers. Then I receive the Lord and sit with him for a while in hopes he will speak or share his heart at that time. However, this time in the middle of me praying he began speaking. I have been so used to a routine before coming to the community but once I got here Father Ezekiel encouraged me to be free with the Lord a bit more.

As he brought up a funny scenerio that many of us christians do in prayer. So he said to many times the Lord wants to speak to us but we put him off because we are praying to him. Think of it this way or imagine Jesus literally walking up to you as you are on your knees in prayer. He taps you on the shoulder and you turn to him and say “wait, give me a second Jesus I am praying”, LOL. Right, it wouldn’t make sense that the very person your praying too wants to talk but your so caught up in the routine of prayer that he has no room to speak to you. So that is what came to my mind and thats why I decided to stop and listen to him rather than finish my prayers because prayer is a ladder to His heart, to conversate with God. When you reach that place in his heart and hear him there is no need to go any further,but thank him.

So I stopped and came before Jesus saying, My beloved Lord what is on your heart?

Jesus began,
I have a message from my people beloved one, that was indeed my heart you saw when I was crying profoundly at the indifference and unbelief of my brides, Of my people. Who say they love me with their lips but, their heart are far from me. I come to them under the guise of the poor, the homeless, the lowly neighbor but, they walk right past me as if I was invisible, because I am to them. Their love for me has grown so cold beloved and how it breaks the Father’s heart. Thank you for listening to the prompting of my Mother and began writing. Truly the rosary is a ladder straight to my heart dear one

I said, Sorry Lord, I kept trying to silence the thoughts you were giving me. I thought it would be best to receive you then write


Jesus continued,
Well, Yes beloved I love when you receive me. We become one but, remember the Lord supper is not just a ceremony. I am physically present and imagine if I was at dinner with you and I wanted to speak with you. Would you tell me wait, lets finish this meal then we can talk? No, beloved we converse through out the whole dinner.

(I began chuckling in my head,… that is so true) 

That is who I am and that is how I want my brides to see and know me. No longer about religion and routines dear one but, a personal familiar relationship that I have with you that I want you to share. Now back to my heart dear one, Oh my people lament truly lament for your nation. There is great hope but, it comes with a cost and a price are you willing to pay? Stop storing up for yourselves treasures and food items that will indeed be eaten up by moths (which he is quoting Matthew 6:19) but, store up to give it away to the poor. Truly by giving to the poor your treasures are stored in heaven. Indeed a spirit of fear, unbelief and avarice have been released on the whole world like never before because of the pandemonium many are storing up. Especially my people, why store up when I have called you to give? For is it not better to give then receive (which he is quoting Acts 20:35) You see even when Joseph was warned of the seven year famine in Egypt it was not only for  himself, his country but, people from all nations came in order that they may be sustained by his store house. So my beloved ones, If I have given you an inclination to store up for the times to come upon your nation it is not just for you but for your neighbors, for the poor, for the single mothers ,  and the widows. Those who are not financially able to help themselves. You become a source of provision for them.

If you think you call me Lord and yet store up goods just for yourself, your family, and think I am pleased you are badly mistaken my dear ones. This is a time of testing that has come upon the whole world and there is much more to come that will test the hearts of my people. To purify them and show them who they are truly standing before me. It doesn’t take much at all my dear ones to see the fragments and particles in your heart I want out, I want out, my people out. The world has creeped into the heart of my beloved ones and I want it out! Trust in me alone me to be your sustenance and give like never before in this time of trial and testing. When you give my protection covers you, surrounds you and your loved ones as you look to me as your providential Father and mirror that of your generous Father who gives to all who ask (Matthew 7:11). So If you must store up, store up to give it all away and to all who ask my dear ones. I am with you and give you now the grace to receive these words and be generous givers.

That was the end of Jesus message

-From Jesus With Love

We Are In The Days Of Noah

March 13, 2020 Journal Entry

I had someone very close to me call yesterday. I was really glad to hear from that because I wanted to thank them for a book and a card they had sent me. Boy was I in for a surprise because I hadn’t talked to this person for a while and it seemed they had much on their heart.

I have mentioned to you guys in the previous post that I was just getting my confidence in hearing From Jesus again and sharing the messages he was giving me. 

I had posted a message about President Donald Trump on my Facebook page just a few days earlier before receiving this call. The Lord was affirming his re-election and presidency. So this person wasn’t too happy about that. They were very angry and disappointed about things the Lord had told me to share on social media. I knew it was the enemy speaking through them to discourage me from writing or having faith that I was hearing from the Lord because that is exactly where he hit.

As this person went on to say that I wasn’t hearing From Jesus and not only that I would get more likes and gain popularity if I would stay away from prophecies, end times message and politics because in every generation they always say “Jesus is coming” and no one knows the day or the hours. That I should just focus on preaching the gospel like other ministers do. At first I was a bit shocked then all I could do was laugh inside because I knew it was sooo the enemy really trying to discourage me from writing. As the person continued to rant on the phone I thought to myself “really Satan that all you got”.  He is good at doing that for all those who desire to follow Jesus whole heartedly. The Lord releases a grace on you and the enemy can see the areas you are struggling with. As his demons taunt you with doubt, unbelief, and fear concerning what the Lord is calling you to do. You struggle interiorly and even in prayer you cry out to the Lord about it. Then satan sends someone to tempt you or scorn you concerning that very thing. To cause you to question, second guess yourself or feed into that doubt. However, if you recognize him immediately that he loses every time. We all can be used by the devil, he uses weak Christians to attack others. I have been there myself.

This is the second time the, the devil, has pulled this one on me. I remember in my second year walking with Jesus I would press in fervently in the Lord presence in prayer at my apartment. It seemed my life had become just work and prayer. I wasn’t seeing any real fruit then nor any real consolations so I found myself being discontent, frustrated and thinking about being more laxed. The thought kept rising in my head “just live a little”, go out have some fun”..Remember the old days, see you gave your life to the Lord and look at it now, its not fun at all”. As all these thoughts assailed me I did tell the Lord in prayer that I just wanted to live a little because my life was just all about prayer, but soon realized how foolish it was and repented.  I even did a blog about it, you can read here.

Then the very next day my brother in law comes over and says the exact same words to me. That I am not called to be a pastor and I am trying to be “holy ,holy” I should just live a little.  I thought to myself waaaa, was he here in my apartment yesterday when I was crying?? Of course not, but the demons were and they knew very well how to tempt me. All I could do was laugh thinking “uh uh not today Satan, not today”. Imagine if I would’ve listened to those senseless thoughts and suggestions from the devils and others. I wouldn’t be where I am with Jesus today, 4 years later.

So after this person got done giving me their opinion, I kindly told them I respected their stance, I loved them, but I had to listen to the Lord and wasn’t at all interested in likes or popularity only Gods will. After I got off the phone I wasn’t even offended, but I did repent for impatience and frustration in my heart towards them.  It actually made me want to pray more because I realize how so many, even Christians are blinded and hardened to the reality of the times that we are living. So I stayed up and prayed for them and souls who are just like him.  They just don’t know, Father forgive them because I too was one as I came before Jesus saying,

Lord, do you have anything on your heart you would like to share?


Jesus began,

I’m here little one, continue to write my beloved thank you for stopping to discernment.

(I had to stop because the voice I was hearing was very condescending on others and I knew it wasn’t the Lords heart So the first two readings got “laziness”, and “long life” in the BP to walk in the way of the Lord. So I bound any lying spirits and continued to write)

Jesus continued,

yes by faith beloved continue writing by faith. We are one and I do dwell within you as I mentioned I am a breath away.  It truly is easy as breathing just write what is flowing from your heart little one. I am indeed  astounded at the profound unbelief in my body and in my brides little one. So many have made me a “thing”, a “religion”, or even “a religious idea”, but they truly have no faith to believe in me or in my words little one. How it grieves me, so many have taken my words, my promises and my warnings for granted. This soul was right to say that many ministers preach the gospel, but it’s just their own gospel it is not my gospel dear one. You are called to do My will and not the will of man. How many chosen shepherds have strayed away because of the fear of man. Strayed way because of the scorn and contempt they would face if they spoke truth and lived by the truth, but I am upsetting the apple cart. I am doing a new thing. I am raising the lowly, the over looked, the rejected, the unwise, and unlearned. 

Those who will follow me and worship me alone in spirit and truth. Those who will lay down their lives for my service and that of their brothers. Those who care not of the accolades, the respect or honor of men, but live for what heaven says alone. We are indeed in the days of Noah. Oh how my faithful servant tarried for so many years, 120 years to be exact. What do you think the people said, the same thing they say now. “Your foolish, your calling bluff, your crying wolf, your inciting fear, preach something we want to hear, what rain..it has never rained.”

As my people say, “what coming?”. “Yes, you have been saying the Lord is coming for a while now, for years, even centuries”, but my people have fallen asleep. Oh how my apostles faced the same scrutiny and contempt in preaching the coming kingdom. So do not be dismayed or discouraged my little one, you may be small in stature, but in me you stand tall and will continue to do so. Tell them my beloved one of their offenses towards me. Tell them I am indeed coming and I am looking for pure hearts and clean hands. Those who have ears to hear will hear. Those who continue to rely on their own opinion, own agendas and own desires will fall at the waste side. Pray for them dear ones, pray for them fervently. For your King is coming and has his reward in hand!

 This is all for now my little one, my very precious little one .I love you dearly my beloved child. Go now in the peace and courage of your God.”

-From Jesus With Love

The Power Of Your Prayers

March 14, 2020


I woke up that day feeling somewhat somber, it had snowed and there was no sun. I left the front community house and went into St. Joseph’s hermitage to pray. I love being away, alone with my beloved. Just to contemplate him, to pour out my heart to him and just to be in his presence.

Whiles in prayer, praying the rosary I saw Blessed Mother so beautiful in her glory.  She was hovering over every prayer petition listening so attentively and then acting on it immeaditley. First I prayed for the schools and I saw her hovering over all the universities praying along side with me, then I prayed over the children as she extended her arms and mantle over all the children of the world. Then I prayed over all the mosque and nations of Islam for conversion. I saw her hovering over different mosque releasing graces and dictating  prayers in her authority. Indeed she is truly the Queen of Heaven. In awe at this vision and still a bit unsure I came before the Lord after prayer saying,

Lord is there anything on your heart? I feel as though you were giving me some thoughts on the power of prayer. Oh Lord by faith I write ( I said smiling),l forgive me Lord


Jesus began,

Oh my little one, my beloved one, I am right here. I see how you have been assailed with so many doubts and fears. This is an assignment not only against you, but the community, and the world at large especially in your nation. I want you all to began praying against a spirit a fear, doubt, and unbelief. Run to my Mother in the rosary to take down this strong man of fear. That will keep many captive, held in darkness and many moving by their emotions rather than my will. So please pray against these things. Truly, when your focus is kept on me alone, I alone am your rock and will give you peace. I alone am your anchor admits the prevailing winds and waters that desire to turn you away from the direction I am taking you dear one, so pray.

 I do want to talk with you concerning the power of prayer. Indeed how sublime it is. It’s never by the eloquence of your speech, how much scripture you know or the words you even say, but it’s about the condition and state of your heart. Prayer is to look within yourself, where I dwell and lift all things to heaven. Wether it’s good or bad and give me thanks. It is to yield yourself to the will of the Father and placing yourself in your rightful position. Right before my throne, trusting confidently that I hear the petition of your heart. Your every thought and sigh that is lifted to me. For you are indeed seated in heavenly places. Oh how my people have lost this and continue to walk in unbelief and lack of faith in prayer. Do they not realize I desire to move through my vessels when they pray. 

History is indeed written by prayer. If the knew the power of their most simplest prayer revival, change would’ve have come so long ago, but once again traditions and eloquence of man have taken their position instead.

 Many shy away from prayer because of so many lies that have creeped in the church. That you must be anointed, that prayer is a gift some have and some don’t. That you must be able to prayer with large words or intention, or the worst of all that you can’t pray as a sinner. That I wont hear you. Lies, lies lies, I hear the prayers of the most lowliest of people and of the most wicked. For the sun shines on the righteous and the unrighteous (Matthew 5:45).

 It is about the state of your heart. If anyone would pray with belief, faith, and trust that I will hear them. I am there with ears opened to hear what they say knowing already their need before thy speak (Matthew 6:8). All of heaven hears the prayers of the people on earth. The most purest of hearts are those prayers said by those who pray my will. So that is the most important thing to seek when praying. Is to seek my will and give me thanks for what I do and I allow. 

 Also my Mothers prayers are POWERFUL. So many lies have been told concerning the rosary. How the demons hate her and her intercession. They will do anything to stop or hinder the prayers of the rosary from going forth, but I will not allow it. Tell them to pray the rosary, pray with intention and wholeheartedness. Seek to have my Mother as their prayer partner. Just as you saw, as you pray she takes every request as her own and she stays with those request until it comes to fulfillment according to my will. Indeed her Immaculate Heart will triumph in the end. I say all these things to encourage you, those in the community and my little ones who are praying. Who feel they is no fruit to be seen or found. My people continue to pray, keep praying. Your are sowing seeds on good soil, fields and grounds. In time very soon there will be copious fruit ripe at the seems. As praises rise up from the ends of the earth because of my mercy and faithfulness. So pray, dear ones pray.” 

-From Jesus With Love

You Are My Treasure

March 12, 2020


 I woke up this morning with my body feeling so sore and very uneasy. I wasn’t sure if I had offended the Lord in anyway or it was a suffering because it was really hard to connect  with Jesus in worship. However, all the songs he was playing over me were about His peace and not to fear so I felt in my heart this was an attack of some sort. 

I ended up talking to Mother Clare and Father  Ezekiel last night for a while. iI was a rough day when I felt so discouraged thinking I had been deceived in discernment with one of the messages I got from Jesus.  It took me into self pity real fast. 

However, they both helped me discern that message in question was from the Lord. Help me Lord, truly to combat this fear, doubt and unbelief in hearing your voice.

Then the community gathered together in the morning and Blessed Mother began to speak to Mother Clare.  She was crying because she had missed their intimate relationship they once had, It was so sweet and encouraged me to go much more deeper with Blessed Mother when praying the rosary as well. We prayed for those affected with the virus. After receiving the Lord I feel so at peace thank you Jesus!

I came to him saying, My beloved Lord is there anything on your heart?

Jesus began,

“’I am right here beloved indeed the graces are flowing on this mountain, in this community in a beautiful way. You all are my faithful ones.  The ones who answered the invitation to my banquet when my Father called. You are the lame, the crippled and blind ones in the eyes of the world, but to me you are my beautiful treasures. For it is the sick that are in need of God not the righteous. Many have turned aside and walked in their own way, but you all have been faithful to endure and preserver with every test that has come against this community and because of your love for me you have withstood every attempt to get you off this mountain. So you all will be richly rewarded indeed encourage, your brother.

(Here Jesus speaking of a soul in the community, one of my brothers. Who has been desiring to hear the Lords voice, but feel hopeless in his efforts)

Many have the same sentiments. Your brothers, tell them in time as they press in the very same grace to hear and see me will given to them. They must just excercise their faith and cast away doubt, fear, pride and comparison. Which stops many from entering into conversations with me . You know a thing or two about that beloved.

(At this point I was writing, but still doubting and of course as usual Jesus reads my thoughts)

 Please stop your worrying, how that hurts me so much. Your lack of trust and confidence in me after all I have done and all we have been through Mary Elisha. 

(My heart just melted when he said that)

 I desire to talk with you. I desire to fellowship and communion with you. If I could have my way we would talk for hours, but it would be too much for your mind to comprehend little one. My words are of eternal importance so I must give you a little at a time. There is only so much you can take in, meditate on, and apply to your life circumstances. Even now I see the intensity you are feeling. These will go with time, remember the enemy hates this more than anything beloved. He will do whatever he can in order to take this grace and gift from you. He will do this with all of you so share with them some of the obstacles you have had to overcome in hearing me.”


Lord sorry I guess I didn’t want to inflate myself or stir anyone up in jealously because I have been there,. You know like “Ooh I am hearing from the Lord”.


Jesus responded,

“Well my beloved one it’s not about you dear. It’s for other so please share. It will strengthen your brethren and those who desire this intimacy with me”


Okay Lord

That is all for now little one continue to come before me every day and allow me to express my heart to you dear. Continue to pray for this community, and Mother Clare especially she will need much wisdom and discernment in the coming days for precise direction. I love you so much words could not be enough to say. You are my beloved in whom I am well pleased.

– From Jesus With Love

“Many Have Taken My Mercy For Granted, Pray!”

I had just come from a ministry trip down in the valley and from talking to Mother Clare and Father Ezekiel about how it went. I was headed back to my place when I  saw my brothers outside conversing so I joined them for a bit although it was pretty late. I got home around 11:30 pm and I  was so tired. However, I desired to seek the Lord to see what was on his heart for me to do with the rest of my evening I got “Laziness”  in the Bible Promises. 

I knew it was about me journaling because I told him when I got back today I would journal tonight to hear his heart, but anxiety was overtaking me again….goodness. So I asked the Lord again and got “Hospitality” which always means to me for me He is wanting me to use my gifts. I knew it, so I asked the Lord again if he wanted me to journal got “Holy Spirit”.


Per my previous blog the Lord has impressed on my heart to begin journaling daily again.  Oh boy how I was still struggle with that…easy as breathing huh ,Lord lol. That morning I had to rush through prayer because we had to go down to the valley to visit our neighbors and what fun that was.  Since being up here on the mountain the Lord had put it on Mother Clare heart to start a food ministry. Where we go door to door giving families in the valley at the base of the mountain food but also ministering to them the love of Jesus.  We started with 8 families just simply knocking on doors asking if they wanted food. It has since grown to 16 people and 13 families in total we now do bible study with and some even receive communion!

I hold their names, their prayers and family situation deep in my heart. Most that day were welcoming, but I just felt in my heart that many had dead faith you know. I’m not sure if I’m being presumptuous, but maybe I am. Everyone seemed to say they knew the Lord but seemed so formal in their conversation about him. I was sensing that I needed to pray “the dead bones would rise in the valley and dead faith be set a flame for the Lord. Here I am praying for dead faith to come to life upon my neighbors when I am struggling with the same thing. Faith to believe that Jesus will speak to me and that he wants to speak to me.

So I came before Jesus with all these thoughts in my heart from what had taken place that day. Lord  you wanted me to come before you believing you would speak to me by faith. I am coming to you to hear your heart.

Lord is there anything you want to say?


Jesus began,

“My heart is breaking for this nation my beloved one. They have no idea what things are in store for them. Terrible, terrible, plans that man and the evil one have concocted to cause this nation upheaval and distress. I want you to pray, pray, pray, little one. Pray for your nation, pray for your president, and pray for your loved ones that they may see the truth. Past the media lies, see the truth past the walls in their conscience they have created in order to not go any deeper with me. Many are so blind by the numerous offenses and sins that are done against me every day. Many have taken my mercy for granted dear one, but I will no longer keep relenting if the hearts of the people in this nation continue on in their stiff neck ways. Then I must allow what is planned to wake many up, my little one. How my heart grieves for my children. So many that continue to reject my love and spit on my mercy. Many who call themselves my own feel they have no need of my mercy because in their eyes they are good. They are in right standing with me, but that is just it..it’s in their Own Eyes and not in my mirror. Pray that hardened hearts would be soften and they would be willing to take a good look in my mirror and be humbled. Remember in the Rick Joyner book how he too shuddered at the door of judgment but, once entering through the door found it to be the greatest treasure and door in heaven. He then asked that he may come to know my judgments more clearly on earth that he may serve me more perfectly. 

(As an aside here Jesus is referencing to the Rick Joyner book called “Final Quest” which I encourage every believer to read!)

Jesus continued,

I have given you that grace daughter and have answered that prayer, you prayed so long ago. Now pray for your brethren to do the same. To seek my judgments here on earth that they may indeed serve me more perfectly and that they wouldn’t then be judged when they see me at the throne.”

I said,

 Lord I hope this is you. 

( I was hesitating, doubting thinking these were my own thoughts. Furthermore, I was struggling because the words didn’t seem as regal and wise as Mother Clare’s “Jesus”,  or St. Faustina’s “Jesus” etc. You see, here I was comparing myself with others. I’m such a hotmess, Lord forgive me. 

Jesus sensed these thoughts in my heart and said,
“Keep writing my little one I speak to you in a way that you will understand and others will understand as well. As simple as a child because that what you are to me, my child. That is all for now my dear one, continue to come before me every day writing because it’s not for your sole benefit. As I mentioned before, but for others my dear one. This fast is very serious and I take your prayers and those of the community very serious. It’s a sweet aroma to me and all of heaven, so continue to pray for your nation and your prayers will be honored. Now rest in me tonight beloved”

-From Jesus With Love

Hearing From Me Is As Easy As Breathing

Hello family,

It has been a long while since I wrote a blog forgive me for my absence. I have been really busy here in the community and also my Youtube Channel however, the Lord reminded me that I wasn’t feed the flock on the website. Moreover,

he really wanted to get his messages out. To spread his writings and words far and wide to bring hope to many. Before I was just writing down things I have experienced and lessons Jesus was teaching me. However, now Jesus has restored the grace of hearing his voice. So I will be sharing the messages he gives me everyday so that you maybe encouraged and strengthened as well!

Since my fall in discernment last year I lost the grace to hear his voice. If I can be honest I was saddened but a bit relieved because I would always become so full of anxiety when trying to have conversations with Jesus or write down what I thought he was saying. The devils would pound me with doubt, unbelief, fear and so much anxiety that I would be deceived again and more over that I was just talking to myself. So it had 9 months and I had became comfortable just getting rhema words from him and getting instructions through the books I read. Also through my spiritual covering as well. Mother Clare who is my spiritual mother, told me that she wanted me to began journaling again. So despite by hesitation and fears I had to be obedient so I began today writing all that happened during prayer

I woke up this morning after having a dream with a friend of mine in it where he gave me some ice cream to eat. I ate it all there were more to the dream but I didn’t remember I then asked Holy Spirit the dreams with me eating something is that spiritual warfare/ witch craft and I got in the BP “Holy Spirit” 1 John 2:27. By the way BP is referring to the Bible Promise I use for discernment. It is a tool Jesus has given us to use to go deeper in discerning his will and its only $2.99 on Amazon. I encourage every believer to use this for discernment as well.  So thought, uh oh and felt I needed to really pray in the spirit. 

Then I went outside to use the restroom and I saw on a bucket the word “ SCEPTER” and I knew that meant authority. I felt the Lord was reminding me to use my authority. As I set with him in adoration for a bit I began to readings from the Bible and various holy books to get some direction from Him. I got readings on “Guilt” and the last reading I got was titled “Hearing and Seeing Jesus”. What stuck out to me that it said “99% of the time we don’t hear or see Jesus because of our unbelief or false guilt …self-hatred of ourselves so thought the Lord then maybe wanted to speak to me”

I thought okay maybe Jesus wants me to practice again hearing his voice.

So I came to him writing in my journal saying,

 Lord from all of the readings you gave me this morning in prayer I feel in my heart you are wanting us to use our scepters, the authority given to us by consecrated a fast and praying for repentance for ourselves and our nation Lord?

Lord is there anything on your heart?

Jesus began,
My Beloved daughter why so tense and full of anxiety I am right here with you. I have always been and dwell within you little one. No need to fear, my desire is that you would began to hear and see me more clearly but, it has been a water gate of guilt that has stopped you from coming to me. Hence all the readings I gave you today were in reference to the steep condemnation and unbelief you were walking in. There is much I want to tell you and much I desire for you to be prepared for. 

I am so proud of you my  little one, Mother Mary Elisha that name suites you very much. I will use you to speak as an oracle on my behalf. Many won’t listen, many will rebel and many will disregard my words to you because of your stature, your demeanor, and how you look but, be not dismayed you are my voice.  I have put my words in to your mouth even though many times they may be strong words don’t fear. 

For as Father Ezekiel said your words, your prayers, will be those that snatch your brethren from the edge. So don’t fear little one, the fruit you bare will be much later but, walk in obedience to me and to your superiors Mother and Father Ezekiel. You are indeed blessed to have them as your shepherd and overseers. They adore you and love you very much, don’t take their wisdom and council for granted. Never do that dear one, I will always honor your obedience to them rather than any sacrifice you give. For when you honor them you, honor me. 

Now I want to talk to you about what is to come. I have called you here on this mountain as a beacon of hope for all nations and a source of light for those who are in darkness. Don’t think everyone I send here will be fit to walk in the Franciscan vocation but, many will come in their season to grow, to be stretched, to be purified, and then to be taught if they are willing to yield to the authorities I have put overhead in this community. If they don’t they too will leave in a while but, your job my little one is to love, love, and then love some more. You here not only to pray but, to be an example  of my love to all your brothers in lowliness, in humility, and in meekness. Submit to all my beloved and don’t take offense I want you to really work on that my love 

 Lord I can’t work at anything please help give me the grace Lord too truly have this attitude of heart its so hard for me Lord

Jesus responded,

I know beloved that is one of your greatest weaknesses and my greatest strength in you. So the graces have been given, but you must have a better resolve dear one. Don’t get lax daisy and when you feel that way just call upon me and I will be near. Of course always run to my Mother, she is a treasure trove full of graces and mercies dear one. She is the one cradling, nurturing and pruning you through all of this. You are my special gift to her dear one.”


Thank you Lord!

(However, I was doubting again and being filled with anxiety to stop writing and Jesus could sense that)

Jesus read my thoughts,

I see you tensing up already. Ease up my little one, ease up take a deep breath. I want you to write all that I say to your heart. Receiving my thoughts and love for you as easy as breathing

 Lord you make it sounds so easy, (at this point I was thinking Jesu has to be kidding it is so hard for me, the anxiety and the doubt are overwhelming)

Jesus responded,

But it is my beloved when you have faith and confidence in me. That it’s not what you do, or how you feel but you come in my presence because you know I love you. You know I desire you and you know I want to speak to you. Not only for your sake for the sake of others my little one

 Oh Lord please helps


Jesus continued,

I am here for you my beloved I truly am. Share these things with Mother Clare let her council be your guide dear one. You are truly blessed, extremely blessed dear just always remember the greater the privilege the greater the humility dear. That should cause you to go lower, lower, and even lower loving your littleness and nothingness and seeing me as your all in all.

Me: Okay Lord thank you so much Jesus I trust in you, Jesus I trust in you, Jesus I trust in you

That was the end of the message from Jesus, with Love!