The Year of Standing In The Storm & God’s Grace


The scripture the Lord gave me  January 1st 2015 was Isaiah 43:19 See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland. Oh how I was looking forward to 2015 year as taking new ground, promises coming to past and growing even more intimacy with the Lord. A friend of mine had also called me ending of 2014 to prophetically speak into my life as to what the Lord revealed would take place in 2015. He stated that the Holy Spirit was in dwelling in me, that 2015 would be a very uncomfortable year. Then friends would distance themselves from you but I shouldn’t lose heart because God would bring that back. He also stated that the Lord had anointed me and many would come to know him through me. Boy do I tell you now remember those words. This has been one of the most  uncomfortable years for me for sure.  Where do I begin, what do u do when your side swiped with  relentless attacks and you find your self in a middle of storm? Well as the word says when you have done all that you can do, stand….Lets be honest its easier said then done right lol. Upon surrendering my life to the call of God last year it has been eye opening, exciting, amazing and awesome. One of the many righteous prayers I said to the Lord is that ” Jesus I will suffer for you, whatever it looks like, whatever may come I am running after you”. Boy, I have come to know not only does Jesus hold to his word but he will hold you at your words too. So I knew trials would come, in fact my whole life has been full of them however, I thought now that I am walking in the ways of the Lord the trials wouldn’t be as hard  right ..or (maybe out of pride) I wouldn’t  really have as many trials or be phased by them because I live for the Lord now (duntadda -superhero anthem music lol) Unfortunately, I think in the past 4 months I have cried more than I have in my life time, sad I know but true I know have a deeper understanding of

Matthew 7: 13-14 “Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. 14 Because narrow is the gate and DIFFICULT is the way which leads to life and there are few who find it

I was so excited when I finally moved knowing that God called me out, setting me apart for greater intimacy with him right!? I mean I even had my own prayer closet! Yes! of course but I didn’t realize It would be a season of great testing as well. In surrendering to the Lord  in excitement I realize he has given me the gift of dreams and vision. As I sought the Lord and asking him what his will was for me in this season and finally after waiting. He told me it was time to move get my own place and start a fellowship at my house,  youtube channel and a blog about all that he was teaching and sharing with me

DISCOURAGMENT- attack on your faithfulness
LESSON LEARNED-God is not concerned with numbers neither should I

The Lord had spoken to me told me to began a fellowship at my house, a prayer meeting at my job. In excitement I told my HR manager which is a great friend and we began holding meeting at the job. Initially no one was showing up then their would be times of 5 people coming then other weeks of one or two or none. The same with the fellowship at my house. I was so excited to have Christian friendships and fellowship. However it seemed people weren’t coming. One  of the days one person confirmed and i decided  to cancel and the Holy Spirit gave me the scripture “For where two or three are gathered together unto My name, there am I in their midst Matthew 18:20 I soon repented and the Lord reminded me that I always leave the 99 for 1 remember that. On another day no one showed up and the enemy was just throwing all sorts of thoughts and lies my way. I just wanted to give up thinking if I had heard the lord correctly and he spoke to me during worshiping saying “Didn’t you say you wanted me, am I truly enough for you. If no one ever came would you continue being faithful”

SPIRITAL WARFARE-attack on ones faith

He reveals a lot in my dreams and  I was really never taught on spiritual warfare even now its not talked or taught a lot in the churches.  So I began to have a lot of spiritual warfare dreams, fighting witches, demons, attempting to  cast them out of people and not sure who to talk too or what they meant. So the Lord let me to John Paul Jackson stream ministries and I have begun to have great understanding as to what I was seeing and what the Lord was revealing.

I  had a dream where I was so excited to follow the Lord an officer stopped me turning in a demon to mock me as to how I wanted to follow the lord. Immediately upon waking up the Holy Spirit showed me vision of myself walking around my room praying intensely. I was startled and of course got my bible and holy spirit opened it  to Psalm 91 as I began to pray  intensely. The most intense of the attacks started in October where I had a I woke up from another dream just to be held down in a form of “sleep paralysis” (which is another form of demonic oppression) and I heard a wirl whind of voices yelling at me to stop talking to everyone then was released. I immediately drop to my knees in my bedroom and began to pray. The scripture the Holy Spirit gave me was Romans 12:12 Rejoice in Hope, Endure in Suffering and persist in prayer. Boy did he mean that. This attack lasted for 2 months. I began to feel so uneasy in my house like  evil presence was there. I couldn’t sleep there alone if I did sleep there all  . I would pray, anoint the house but would still have restless nights and attacks. Soon I started to believe the lies of the enemy that I had done something wrong, that there was no point in praying . Worse of all I had people remove themselves from me because of the attacks. I was honestly losing hope kept asking the Lord why. Then the Holy Spirit gave me another scripture

1 peter 4:12-1

Suffering for Being a Christian

12 Dear friends, do not be surprised at the fiery ordeal that has come on you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. 13 But rejoice inasmuch as you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed.

I finally went to get prayer at my church and upon a lady laying hands she stated to me a harassing spirit had been assigned to me. Not because of what I had done or my weakness but because of my strength and calling on my life. Needless to say I broke down in tears those where the most comforting word I had heard in a while. Then the holy spirit prompted me to fast for 4 days straight and received revelation in a dream of me casting out the spirit of fear from my house and then casting out the strong man! I was gracious for the Lords faithfulness.

Through the intense trials the remaining half of the year relationships broke apart, began to compare myself to others and even began to have jealously, resentment, discouragement and insecurity in my heart. Which exactly what the  enemy wanted me to give up on God, return back to my old ways and lose faith in his promises. But oh for the Grace of GOD which held me, sustained me, and carried me throughout the year to not give up. I have been strengthen and have a deeper trust in JESUS. I now know that our relationship, worship and praise to God is not based on what we feel or what we are going  through but it should be always based  on who he is.  A GOOD GOOD FATHER!

May Gods grace, peace & joy be with you this new year 2016. GOD BLESS YOU!



No God isn’t fixing it but he still Saves!

I saw a trending article from NY Daily news this morning about the shooting in San Bernardino that states “God isn’t fixing this” which prompted me to write this blog via the Holy Spirit. jesus_saves Everyone can agree regardless of your belief or faith that a shift is happening, unprecedented like never before and that our nation, our world, is in rapid decline. Some attribute all this to the climate change, history just repeating itself, or false spiritualism. However, if I can let you in on some “good news”, that this was all written and foretold of this time in a book that so many have come to dismiss and discount, The Bible. You see the Lord prophesied about future events in the Last days about it being perilous times.

2 Timothy 3 But know this, that in the last days perilous times will come: For men will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy, unloving, unforgiving, slanderers, without self-control, brutal, despisers of good, traitors, headstrong, haughty, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God, having a form of godliness but denying its power. And from such people turn away!

that you would hear “wars & rumors of wars, but SEE YOUR NOT ALARMED, SUCH THINGS MUST HAPPEN, but the end is till to come” Matthew 24:6. You see videos popping up like never before of people glorifying fights, pushing even death, having a mother, brother, sister, man & woman turn on each other on camera for 15 seconds of fame as the bible also prophesied “They will be divided father against son, son against father…mother against daughter, daughter against mother”…Luke 12:53. Now we have America turning away from the Christian faith and accepting the doctrine that all is welcome, God is in all religions. We have more atheist and agnostics than ever before and the Christian faith is fast becoming the minority which, the Lord also prophesied in 1 Timoty 4:1The Spirit clearly says that in LATER TIMES some will abandon the faith and follow deceiving spirits and things taught by demons……Oh but there is that wonderful “Good news”!! When these things begin to take place, stand up and lift up your heads, because your redemption is drawing near. Luke 21:28. These things are taking place so look up my fellow brothers and sisters the time is very, very, near! The time has come for AMERICA TO WAKE UP…no longer does wealth, riches, our health and even good life=Christianity or the God we serve. Christianity is about Loving our enemies (those who persecute us), Faith in God’s word when our circumstance and everything around us says otherwise, Giving your time, resources, your heart to others in service, sacrificing your WHOLE life, worldly pleasures all that you are and have for God purpose, Holiness turning from sin, no longer making excuses why you sin, seeking righteousness and being about Gods business. Which is SOULS, the lost they are so precious to him don’t stop praying for them. So many people don’t know him but know religion. He is calling us to rise up and be that light in this increasing dark world. He calls us not to love our lives because this isn’t all we have to live for ” whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will find it” Matthew 16:25. So when senseless acts of tragedy like this happen I ask myself did the deceased have a relationship with the Lord, were they saved? The time is here when we will be soon be faced with death, of our loved ones, our children even ourselves but the Lord tells us how to overcome “They triumphed over him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives and were unafraid to die.” Revelation 12:11 Are you okay with death, are you afraid of dying? If so then the question begs do you really know where you are going? Our lives, Our soon lifestyle and even freedom in America will soon be shaken, crumbling to the ground will you cower in fear, turn away from your faith because this is not the God that you know, will you take up arms and began to take matters into your own hands, will you begin to listen to other doctrines, teaching on “religion” and find one that works for you. Most importantly will you give up and stop praying to the one that is the Beginning and the End, the ONE who knows it all, prophesied of it all, the ONLY ONE able to save and is soon returning Jesus Christ! Our lives our not our own, Christianity is not a religion it is a relationship. Jesus Christ is real & alive, he yearns to have a relationship with all that he created and if you don’t already know him I am talking to you.

Don’t allow fear to leave you confused, hopeless and paralyzed because of what is going on. The Lord spoke of all these things happening & taking place. Unfortunately, that means that these shooting and attacks will increase they won’t stop and the world won’t began to get better as many are hoping as the Lord tells us “The world and its desires pass away, but whoever does the will of God lives forever”. 1 John 2:17. For our hope doesn’t come from this world but in God, his word and the eternal life that is promised in Son! The only way you can have that eternal life is through Jesus Christ and Christ alone there is no other way to God. The bible is Good news from cover to cover, it tells of our beloved father who knew we would make a mess of this world and gave as an amazing way out of eternal death by sending his only son Jesus to die for our sins. With his shed blood redeemed us back to the father so anyone who believes in him and follows him will be saved from this dying world in to eternal life with him! What a wonderful Grace, so in response to that article no, God is not fixing it because we live in a fallen world that has removed him out of our government and rapidly out of our nation. When we remove God we remove his protection. Furthermore, most importantly he foretold all of this happening because the earth is in fact passing and he is soon returning to restore and redeem this earth as it should’ve have been, However God still saves, he is not concerned with the earth than he is concerned with your soul, and those around having eternal life being in a relationship and fellowship forever. Will you accept his grace today and if you have will you share this wonderful good news & hope with others in a dying world! So lets continue to praying for our nation, Gods will, those affected in the tragic shooting & the souls of this nation. God bless!